A little of this and a little of that

New Hair Cut :)

2009-07-18T18:31:00.006-04:00

Before

After

Wow I thought I was going to get 4 inches cut today but after I saw it I decided on 2 more inches. I really like it at the moment ... guess I'll really know when I go to pull it up. LOL Already tried my clip and it didn't work. While waiting on these pictures to upload I tried a ponytail and it works. :) So I'll still be able to pull my hair up when I work out. I really couldn't believe how long my hair had gotten. PS Forgot to take a picture of the back before the hair cut.

~LaTeR~

GOD IS GOOD ... HE IS STILL IN CONTROL & HE IS WORTHY TO BE PRAISED & HONORED!!!

2009-07-17T16:50:00.003-04:00

It's been a busy week. I think they just get faster and faster. I finished up reading "How to Forgive when You Can't Forget" last night, it was a pretty good book. I found myself having to reread some sentences to make sure I understood what I was reading, but took lots of great notes. Debated starting back to read Joyce Meyer "The Confident Woman" but after the morning I had I decided on "Safe People ... How to Find Relationships That Are Good For You & Avoid Those That Aren't" by Dr Henry Cloud and Dr John Townsend. Hoping to learn a lot of great things from this book. It came highly recommended by a good friend of mine. I got me a handy dandy notebook instead of note cards this time ... I kept having to grab note cards so I figured a notebook would be a lot better. :)

Got most of the house cleaned up this morning then I got to go have lunch w/my son before his doctors appointment. Doctor said he was fine just to finish up the medicine he was taking. Now I just hope we don't have to go back for awhile. LOL Seems like everytime I turn around since the day before school let out I've been taking him to the ER or the doctor. I asked them today if I could trade him in. Now I really wouldn't do that because even though he knows how to push my buttons he always makes me laugh.

Great memory verse for today is "Being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. Phil. 1:6

Remember ... GOD IS GOOD ... HE IS STILL IN CONTROL & HE IS WORTHY TO BE PRAISED AND HONORED!!!

~LaTeR~

If you're ever going to love me,

2009-07-14T19:14:00.002-04:00

A Poem from the book I'm reading "How to Forgive When You Can't Forget" Charles Klein

If you're ever going to love me,

Love me now,

While I can know,

The sweet and tender feelings,

Which from true affection flow,

Love me now,

While I am living,

Do not wait until I'm gone,

And then have it chiseled in marble,

Sweet words on ice stone.

If you ever have tender thoughts of me,

Please tell me now.

If you wait until I am sleeping,

Never to awaken,

There will be death between us,

And I won't hear you then.

So if you love me,

Even a little bit,

Let me know it while I am living,

So I can treasure it.

~Anonymous~

I thought that was just awesome!!!

GOD IS GOOD ... HE IS STILL IN CONTROL AND HE IS WORTHY TO BE PRAISED AND HONORED!!!

~LaTeR~

There's nothing like ....

2009-07-11T18:12:00.001-04:00

There's nothing like ....

Well I got started in "How to Forgive When you Can't Forget" by Charles Klein ... it's sort of hard to read. I find myself having to read sentences just to figure out what I'm reading ... so I guess I'm saying I wish it was an easier read, but I have getting some great notes from the book. I got out my concordance this morning searching for stuff I picked up out of the book. :) Soon as I'm finished here going to get back at it. My time was cut short I had to take my son to the ER but that was fine.

So we started our morning at the ER ... I thought the spot on my sons ankle was where he had been bitten by a tick. It still could be a bite from a tick, spider, or just an open wound that got infected ... the infection spread up his leg and caused the lymph node in his groin area to enlarge. So after getting instructions from the doctor and prescriptions we headed off to the drug store and a quick trip home. Then we left again right before 12 to go to pick up his medicine and then to meet up w/Meagan to go eat lunch. That's when I thought I had a brilliant idea to get my toes and nails done. :) Meagan had a gift certificate so we went and got it then headed to VyVy nails for pampering ... then Meagan had been talking about getting her hair cut so we waited 45 minutes to get her hair cut I'm going back next Saturday .... doing to get my cut in a stack in the back and long in the front :) I can't wait to see what it's going to look like. I'll try to remember to take a before picture and an after picture. I meant to do that before I started working out but forgot so maybe I'll be better this time. :) Well my son wasn't a happy camper with me so I took him out for ice cream and that seemed to work at settling him down from being mad at me. :) Now he's gone to play golf and I'm enjoying the quiet time. :)

Well I'm on a roll ... maybe I can keep it up ... 2 days in a row now

GOD IS GOOD ... HE IS STILL IN CONTROL AND HE IS WORTHY TO BE PRAISED AND HONORED!!!

~LaTeR~

2009-07-11T08:38:00.001-04:00

Testing to see how this works sending an update from my phone :)

Well I keep saying ...

2009-07-10T19:04:00.002-04:00

Well I keep saying I'm going to get better at my blog but I haven't gotten there yet. LOL I've been busy reading and I bought a wii fit which is way fun. I didn't feel like I was getting the workout I wanted with it ... so I went in search for something else. I found the EA Sports Personal Trainer and I love it!!! I'm doing the 30 day challenge right now & have noticed that my clothes are starting to be big :) now that puts a smile on my face. So now I'm doing the Personal Trainer and only using the wii fit for keeping up w/my BMI and weight. (now it does make me angry w/the Wii age LOL)

Things have been hectic at work since I got back. I'm still playing catch up and not sure how much longer that is going to take me. It seems like every time I think I'm going to get some extra time my desk & in box gets slammed. I'm not complaining because I feel blessed to have the job that I have. In fact the first of July was my 7th anniversary of employment :).

I'm starting back the book "How to Forgive when You can't Forget" ... hoping to finish it this time ... then I plan on either finishing up Joyce Meyer's book "The Confident WOMAN" or starting "Safe People". That's the plan anyways then once I finish these 3 books I'll take a look and see if I want to read another Joyce Meyer or start back w/fiction books again. I need to go to the library to see if they have the Karen Kingsbury book I'm missing and I'm not wanting to have to order it and pay shipping. Yeah Yeah I know I'm a cheap, but still I'd rather plan a road trip to Anderson and find it at the book store. :)

Well this was short even though I haven't posted in while I'm wanting to get to my workout for today before it gets any later. :)

~LaTeR~

GOD IS GOOD ... HE IS STILL IN CONTROL AND HE IS WORTHY TO BE PRAISED AND HONORED!!!

Oh My It's been awhile

2009-06-21T19:53:00.002-04:00

Oh my can't believe how long it's been since I blogged :( will try to get better at this but got lots going on. :) Lets see where to begin. I've been a Grandma since March 3rd of this year. Then in April I had surgery and this month I've started counting calories (that isn't fun at all).

Sierra made her presence know March 3rd that was just awesome words can't describe that. I never want to forget that moment and I hope I get to experience it again but much later on. LOL Can't belive it's been over 3 months now but she is a cutie I call her SweetPea :)
My surgery went great ... still don't think my hormones are right yet ... been told it takes about six months :( but I'm at the stage where I just like being by myself. :( I know that's not good but I've been getting lots of reading done during this time. In fact I tell myself every Saturday night that I'm going to get up the next morning and head to church, but end up in my chair watching the New Spring Webcampus instead ... it can be found at the following link on Sundays at 11:15, 2 and 6 http://www.newspring.cc/webcampus . On a plus note instead of being out of work six weeks I was only out 4 weeks which was great.

Yes I started counting calories on Wednesday, June 17th, and discovered that I'm not eating enough but I was sick that day. So I've been writting down everything including breath mints LOL I'm averaging around 1500+ calories a day and according to the webmd web site I only 1200 calories. Now I did buy a Wii Fit for me and my son and so far I've stuck w/it for 10 straight days. :) I skipped today well except to show my son something so I think I got in 8 minutes but I guess that's better than skipping the whole day.

This weekend was a busy weekend for me ... well it started on Thursday night during the storm. I cleaned the carpet in my sons room, then on Friday I got home and worked on trying to clean the siding, then worked out on the wii for 30 minutes then cleaned the carpet in my living room/dinning room (don't use the dinning room as a dinning room use it for a computer / puzzle area instead. Then on Saturday I went and got groceries and came home was washed the siding out back and then out front ... I still got to clean the windows (but I hate cleaning windows!) I also found time to do the Wii and then I read until bedtime.

~LaTeR~ (hopefully it won't be as long til the next post)

Project Sort of Complete

2009-02-23T19:25:00.002-05:00

I finished the blanket today. ;) In between being sick ... I've got to block it then I'll get a picture of it so I can post. That will be later in the week because tomorrow I have practice and Wednesday I have counseling. Wednesday will be a very sad day due to having to tell my counselor good bye but I think I have decided not to continue with my counseling. If I see that I need to start back then I'll leave that option open.

Now I'm going to start reading ... I bought me 2 new books Saturday by Karen Kingsbury. I have a Robert Whitlow book and a Beth Moore book I'd like to read. Really I've got lots of books on my agenda to get read so I think now will be a good time to start. Going to start out w/the Shack ... I've heard mixed reviews on it. You can check out my bookshelf at the following link. http://www.shelfari.com/tina29646 This link is from a pastor that does not agree with someone reading the shack http://http://www.marshillchurch.org/search/results?q=the+shack This pastor tells you to read it and let it stretch you but not to let it replace your scripture reading it's a fiction book http://http://www.perrynoble.com/2009/01/27/how-do-you-feel-aboutthe-shack/.

Well it's time to watch Monday night TV ... House is the show for me :)

~LaTeR~

God is Good, He is still in Control and He's Worthy to be Praised and Honored!!!

Hard Week & Sad Day

2009-02-19T20:07:00.005-05:00

Man it's been one more week. If you follow me on twitter or facebook then you know how yesterday was. I'll recap here what's been going on. :) Let's see last week we had our year in Auditors at work and they were back this week well that is until Wednesday. Then we had another set of auditors come in Monday of this week and they were asking for stuff from 2005 and 2006 ... yep FUN FUN ... but it really hasn't been that bad. It's been lots of extra work but I haven't stressed as much as I thought I would. Wednesday I left work early but told the auditors I'd be back and ready to answer questions on Thursday morning. Well I had gotten off work early on Wednesday to go to my daughters ultra sound with her and she ended up being admitted to the hospital for fluids. Come to find out her amniotic fluid was low was why she was having to have the fluids run by IV. So I called my boss when I got home last night and explained to him that I wasn't sure if I'd be at work Thursday but would come in if things were ok with my daughter ... she was having another ultra sound to check the amniotic fluid and if it was up she would be able to go home if not we were told they would take the baby. Well her fluid was up to 14 this morning so she got to go home. I'm thankful for all my friends who sent up prayers for Meagan and Sierra yesterday and last night. :) So needless to say this has been a very interesting week for me.

Then tonight I had counseling and found out that next Wednesday evening will be my last session. :( My counselor is moving out of state ... so that was and is going to be very sad for me. She told me she would recommend me to another counselor that she felt like I would do well with but said that it was my decision. I about cried when she told me but I was able to control it. Guess I just know how far I've come since I've been seeing her. In fact I've thought several times that I was almost to the point of where I wouldn't be going much longer but it was such a blow tonight finding out that she is leaving. I thought about it on my way home and was reminded of an email I once received about how some people come into our lives for a season or two or three and sometimes forever. I know that if it weren't for my counselor I'd probably still be stuck in a rut somewhere and I've made great progress and I'm really going to miss her but will stay in touch with her. I'll be able to email her and still share things with her about my children and soon to be granddaughter. :) Still debating if I will see another counselor or not but I just feel like my counselor is not replaceable and that maybe it's just time for me to not really end that season but end that season if that makes sense. It does to me so I guess that's all that matters.

Oh yeah just found out today for sure that our practice is being moved from Sunday afternoons to Tuesday evenings and I think I'm EXCITED about that. I'll have to get use to going on Tuesdays after work but once I get the schedule change down pat I'll be adjusted to it. That's the only draw back to be a scheduled person is when you have a change in your schedule it really messes you up. LOL Knowing that you have OCD makes it a little easier to be able to tell why things are just driving you crazy. It's not that I don't like change because change can be a good thing some times it just takes me a little bit to adjust. Well since I am such a scheduled person even down to my bed time I've got to stop here so I can head toward the bed now. LOL

~LaTeR~

God is God, He is Still in Control and He's Worthy to be Praised and Honored!!!

Got the Fever

2009-02-17T19:37:00.002-05:00

WOW I got the Spring Fever!!! The past 2 nights so far I've come home from work and CLEANED up and out. Monday night I worked in my attic and my sons' room until I was too tired to do any more. So tonight when I got home we started back on his room, He's still got a few things left in his room to do but his closet has been cleaned out and put back in an orderly fashion. :) I've left him in charge of straightening out what's left and pointed out things I think he needs to work on. Then I moved on to the living room and laundry room. I cleaned the desk area but still got the filing to do. (Not one of my favorite things to do even when I'm in a cleaning mood.) Cleaned up the living room and then pulled everything that was movable out of the laundry room and cleaned up the swept the dust up. LOL The laundry room wouldn't have been that bad but I moved a flower into my laundry room the beginning of winter and it shed every where making the worst mess every had to wipe everything down and shake everything out. Now I've got the kitchen and my room left ... I think my room will be the hardest of all. :( I've got tons of stuff I need to figure out how to organize. Think I'll start in my closet, then the bathroom leaving the bedroom itself to last. :)

Well tomorrow is hump day and the last day at work on the good auditors (that's what my boss calls them) they are leaving sometime after lunch. The other auditors will be there until Friday ... well that is one will be working on Friday the other 5 or 6 are leaving Thursday afternoon headed back to Denver. :) It's really been ok with the auditors as far as I'm concerned and I'm just hoping that we get great news and that we've done a great job and that they didn't find very many errors. Time will tell.

PS Tomorrow I'm going to the doctor w/my daughter ... I'll get to see Sierra and I'm SO EXCITED!!! I can't wait until she gets here so I can hold her and spank her little butt!! LOL She's already rotten and she's not even here yet.

~LaTeR~

God is GOOD, He is still in Control and He's Worthy to be Praised and Honored!!!

Project Update

2009-02-15T20:21:00.003-05:00

Well I've finally taken a picture of the project so I could post an updated picture. I think I have 20 more rows to go (15 of those are the pattern rows then 5 just plain on knitting rows) then I have to pick up stitches on each side and do 4 rows to the sides. Never done anything like that w/my knitting so that will be a learning experience for me and I hope that I don't mess it up. Might have to just finish it up w/those 8 rows missing. We'll see and I'll keep you posted on how I'm doing. Did an up close shot so you could see the front and back side. :) Not to happy w/the lighting on the picture I took of the over all project.

~LaTeR~

God is Good, He is still in Control and He's Worthy to be Praised and Honored!!!

Happy Valentine's Day!!!

2009-02-14T18:01:00.004-05:00

Last night we (Meagan, Kyle and I) kept Dallas. He belongs to Meagan's aunts friend. It wasn't that bad ... we went to I-Hop and then Dallas went to sleep on the way home. :) Not sure what time he woke up but Kyle got up with him. I heard them in the kitchen so I got up at the same time Meagan was getting up. Decided on oatmeal for his breakfast and that was a site ... wish I could have gotten a video of that. I'm guessing he'd never had oatmeal before, he spit it out then wouldn't let me use the spoon to rake it off his face. LOL He did end up eating the oatmeal though. After his mom came to pick him up Meagan and Kyle left to go home and me and my son got ready to go.
Meagan and Kyle were going to Anderson as were me and my son. They went to the Jockey Lot while me and my son went to Hobby Lobby, Books a Million, and then we met up with them at the Anderson Mall. I did find another all EDGES puzzle, and we found a board we could use to put on the card table so we can work the New York City puzzle we bought a few weeks back. At the book store I found Sierra a book and I found a turtle that's a magnifier. :) (it will come in handy when we work the all EDGE puzzle wish we had of had one with the sports all EDGE puzzle we just finished) At the mall found the little knives I had been hunting for at Christmas but couldn't find so now I'll have them next time I need them. :) Got my son a very expensive hat ... not sure how I got suckered into that but I did tell him I'd buy him a hat guess I should have given him a price limit. (Lesson Learned) Left the mall and I wanted to go in the Lifeway Christian Bookstore and got me the WOW Hits 2009 (Great CD) So now I'm home relaxing watching tv and trying to stay awake. :)
~LaTeR~
God is Good, He is still in Control and He's Worthy to be Praised and Honored!!!

WOW It's Finished!!!

2009-02-13T18:33:00.002-05:00

Finished the puzzle last night right before 10 and it had a missing piece. Well I thought my son had hid some puzzle pieces because he had been kidding around about hiding them so he could be the one who finished it. :) Well I found 2 pieces that had fallen off under the table upside down they blended in with the carpet. So that left 1 piece and I was hunting for it ... I asked my son this morning if he would get the piece he hid and he was like I was picking on you. So I looked again for the one missing piece and I found it in the bag that the puzzle had came in. :) So now we've got it set up so we can glue it and I've got to measure it so I can get a frame for it.

Can't believe I'm going to say this but I think I wouldn't mind working another one of these crazy puzzles. My son on the other hand said "Can't you buy me a regular puzzle?" We picked out a puzzle a couple of weeks ago but got to figure out where we can work it because my card table isn't big enough. Wal-Mart has a table I started to buy when I got the one I got now may have to get it but got to justify buying a long table first. Guess it could be useful for taking outside to use for potting flowers.

~LaTeR~

God is GOOD, He is Still in Control and He is Worthy to be PRAISED and HONORED!!!

WOW making Progress

2009-02-11T22:39:00.004-05:00

The first picture you see was taken Wednesday night after I finished working on the puzzle and the second one was taken Thursday night. My son did help me put a few pieces together tonight. :) Then he went on to tell me how much of it he had done. LOL

Can't get any worse

2009-02-11T18:48:00.002-05:00

I so wonder about people sometimes, I tell myself all the time I'm not going to let people get to me but some how I ended up letting them. I tell myself if they can live with themselves then so can I. I know they will have to answer for their actions one day not me. So anyways that is my venting for today ... debating working on my project or the puzzle one but the girls at work said not to work on the puzzle tonight since I was already flustered. I'll try to post a picture of the puzzle either tomorrow or Friday one and oh yeah the project too. :)

~LaTeR~

God is good, He is still in Control and He's worthy to be praised and honored!!!

2009-02-10T17:40:00.002-05:00

My daughter sent me pics today so I'm posting updated belly pics. :) Just a few more weeks left ... she goes for an ultra sound on the 18th so maybe they will give a more definite time frame. I'm still sticking w/the 11th of March.

Moon

2009-02-09T19:27:00.001-05:00

This is the view outside tonight ... the picture doesn't do it justice. Wanted to see if I could get a picture and this was the best looking one ... so enjoy.

The Darn Puzzle

2009-02-09T17:47:00.003-05:00

Oh my Goodness this crazy puzzle ... I was up until 11:30 last night. Not sure if we'll ever finish. Believe it or not we are moving right along with it. :) May not look like it by the picture but we are I promise.

~LaTeR~

God is God, He is still in control and He's worthy to be Praised and Honored!!!

Caught in the act :)

2009-02-07T17:28:00.003-05:00

My son wanted to try out my new camera and I was working on my project that night ... so guess who he took pictures of? Guess we could have picked up some before snapping pictures. I'll have to take a picture and post again because the project is coming right along. I have 36 rows left and 2 of those I'm dreading, but once I get passed that it'll be ok. :)

~LaTeR~

God is Good, He is still in Control, and He is Worthy to be Praised and Honored!!!

Puzzle Update

2009-02-06T19:58:00.003-05:00

I snapped a picture of my son working on his crazy puzzle. :) He's actually doing a great job on it to say it's as hard as it is. I also took a picture of of his biggest progress ... he was so excited. I think if I ever buy an all edges puzzle again he'll be very upset with me. I've told him it's very good for him to work his mind with this puzzle. I'll post some pictures later of his/our progress. :)

2009-02-01T12:44:00.001-05:00

Just finished watching NewSpring Web campus www.newspring.cc/wepcampus and now I'm working on my photo's while waiting on a text about lunch

My Kids :)

2009-01-31T21:42:00.004-05:00

Is this not the most beautiful picture you ever seen???

Hearts

2009-01-31T20:33:00.003-05:00

Saw these laying out at my daughters' today and grabbed them so I could get a picture. :) This was what I made her for Christmas 2008. I did these pillowcases and then I did a his and hers set for some friends of mine. Then I did a table runner with snowmen on it for a friend at work.

33 weeks

2009-01-29T18:00:00.005-05:00

I stole this picture off of my daughters blog. This is a picture of her belly (duh) at 33 weeks. Looks like to me she still got a long ways to go because she hasn't started dropping yet. Wonder if she could hold out for April???? I'm still sticking with the date I picked but going to get her to take another picture a week or so before then so I can make a final pick. LOL
The baby shower is Saturday and I've got to figure out what I'm going to take to it and what I'm just going to load in the car to take to her house ... I hate to wrap presents.

Belly picture of Sierra

2009-01-24T20:34:00.004-05:00

This is a picture of Sierra before her arrival which is still over a month away. I have guessed that she will be here March 11th (her due date is the March 17) and weigh 6.7 pounds and have red hair and brown eyes like her Grandma (I'm going to have Sierra call me ma-ma). Meagan guessed 15 pounds blonde hair and blue eyes. Now she is saying blonde changing to red or red changing to blonde. Meagan's guess for tonight is I don't know. Kyle thinks bigger than 6.7 pounds. I'll post an update later on about this. =)

My Son's Puzzle

2009-01-24T20:17:00.006-05:00

This is what my son has been working on and I ended up helping him some tonight. The puzzle is an all edges. Fun Fun ... I had the attitude of him tonight, I quit like he did when he first opened it.

In Memory of Snuggie December 30, 2008

2009-01-17T09:40:00.002-05:00

This little guy was my parents life and their baby. It's been very hard on them and my mom is still having a hard time you can't tell it with my dad but I'm sure he's still down under about it too. It was a very sad night is all I can say. My son was very upset about it as well, he had gotten attached to Snuggie when he was staying there after school. He use to be scared of Snuggie cause Snuggie would bite him and attack him when we'd go over there cause you see Snuggie didn't like sudden movements or the hyperness of my son. Snuggie was one of a kind and he will be missed greatly. I don't have anyone to give a treat to now when I go out to my parents house. (Snuggie would get a treat when I'd go in I guess cause I was a good girl. LOL)

Project

2009-01-16T19:06:00.004-05:00

This is what I've been working on since after Christmas. This is the 1/2 point and I wanted to get a picture and post it on my blog. What better way to do it than with my new Camera. :) Been looking online at camera's and talking and asking questions and I finally just jumped in head first and bought on. I'll post a finished picture if I don't forget. ha-ha I did some projects at Christmas but forgot to take pictures so I could post them here. Let me tell you I was stressing because I didn't know if I'd finish in time but I did all except my sons and he's got a birthday coming up in March so I may have time to get his done then I can take a picture of it and post it. ;)

~LaTeR~

2009-01-13T10:20:00.001-05:00

You play the hand you’re dealt. I think the game’s worthwhile.
— CS Lewis

When a Friend Betrays (Purpose Driven Life)

2009-01-08T08:58:00.002-05:00

Yep you guessed it I'm playing catch up on my emails and came across this one and couldn't help but post it to my blog to share with others. :)

When a Friend Betraysby When a Friend Betrays
He whose walk is blameless and who does what is righteous, who speaks the truth from his heart and has no slander on his tongue, who does his neighbor no wrong and casts no slur on his fellowman. Psalm 15:2-3 (NIV)
*** *** *** ***Here are three steps toward learning to trust again when a friend betrays:Reveal your hurt to God. Vent your frustrations to God. Tell him about the friend who betrayed your most intimate secret, the family member who broke a promise one too many times, or the co-worker who deliberately worked to make you look bad even while she pretended to be supporting you.God will never be surprised or upset by your anger, your hurt, or your sense of loss over betrayal. You can tell him exactly how you feel, and trust him to understand.Release those who’ve offended you. Forgiveness does not mean you instantly trust your friend again. God teaches us to forgive instantly and for as many times as it takes; however, trust must be rebuilt over time. Trust must be re-earned.Forgiveness doesn’t mean you have to resume the relationship immediately, and it also doesn’t mean you have to resume it without any change. Your friend, or family member, will only be able to rebuild your trust over time as he or she consistently and humbly shows that he or she is “one who lives honestly, practices righteousness, and acknowledges the truth in [his/her] heart – who does not slander with [his/her] tongue, who does not harm [his/her] friend or discredit [his/her] neighbor …” (Psalm 15:2-3 HCSB).Re-focus your life. Don’t let anyone, particularly someone who has betrayed your trust, maintain a grip on your emotions. No doubt you’re feeling angry and hurt, but rather than trying to resist those thoughts, re-direct them.For instance, try to see the situation from God’s perspective, and remember his ability to take things that are hurtful or mean-spirited in our lives and turn them into good. © 2008 Purpose Driven Life. All rights reserved.

Sharing an email from Purpose Driven Life

2009-01-08T08:49:00.000-05:00

Love Is an Actionby Rick Warren
Dear children, let us stop just saying we love each other; let us really show it by our actions. 1 John 3:18 (NLT) *** *** *** ***Love is something you do. Do you really love someone? Let’s see how you act toward that person. You show love by what you do, not just by what you feel.Love is more than attraction and more than arousal. It’s also more than sentimentality, like so many of today’s songs suggest. By this standard, is love dead when the emotion is gone? No, not at all. Because love is an action; love is a behavior.Over and over again, in the Bible, God commands us to love each other. And you can’t command an emotion. If I told you “Be sad!” right now, you couldn’t be sad on cue. Just like an actor, you can fake it, but you’re not wired for your emotions to change on command. Have you ever told a little kid, “Be happy!” I’m trying, daddy! If love were just an emotion, then God couldn’t command it. But love is something you do. It can produce emotion, but love is an action. The Bible says, “Let us stop just saying we love each other; let us really show it by our actions” (1 John 3:18 NLT). We can talk a good act: “I love people.” But do we really love them? Do you really love them? Our love is revealed in how we act toward them. © 2008 Purpose Driven Life. All rights reserved.

Busy but who's not???

2009-01-04T11:03:00.002-05:00

Man I've been so busy and I know that my blog is feeling very lonely. LOL I thought once Christmas was over I'd have some down time but I was so wrong. :) I'm working on a new project now and it's very time consuming :( but in the end I know it will be great. I hate that I didn't well forgot to take pictures of the projects I did at Christmas so I could post pictures. Maybe I can get my daughter to send me a picture of what I did for her. :)

Don't forget the Bible reading for this year.

Guess I'd better get busy here it is Sunday and I've been home since Wednesday evening in my PJ's and haven't done a thing except shower put PJ's back on and work on my project. So I'm washing clothes and working on my project today.

2009-01-01T16:07:00.001-05:00

Follow me in reading the Bible this year http://ping.fm/YnVUr

2008-12-30T21:16:00.001-05:00

Please be in prayer for my parents

2008-11-28T11:01:00.001-05:00

All Decorated for Christmas!!! :)

Way Behind

2008-11-14T13:27:00.001-05:00

I'm way behind blogging :( Sorry but I have been adding shared items as you will notice on the side bar. :) Guess I'm reading too many other blogs to keep up with my own. LOL
I'm very busy with work then just very tired after leaving work ... so I've been working and sleeping and that's about it except for the weekends which I do lots of resting if I'm not out on an Adventure. :)
~LaTeR~

2008-10-01T17:37:00.001-04:00

I just thought this was really great and wanted to share with anyone who might read my blog :)

2008/09/26

How to Balance Your Schedule

by Rick Warren

*** *** *** ***

So
be careful how you live, not as fools but as those who are wise. Make
the most of every opportunity for doing good in these evil days. Don’t
act thoughtlessly, but try to understand what the Lord wants you to do.
Ephesians 5:15-17 (NLT)

We all have the same amount of time – 168 hours a week. The only
question is, “How am I investing it?” We want to learn to invest it
wisely so that we won’t be like the man in Isaiah 49:4, who said, “I
have used up my strength but have accomplished nothing” (GNT).

Ephesians 5:15-17 offers three steps to understanding how to manage your time better:

1. Analyze my lifestyle. “So pay close attention to how you
live. Don’t live like ignorant people, but like wise people” (Ephesians
5:15 GNT). Be aware of time robbers. Don’t say, “I wonder where all my
time went!” Carefully evaluate your schedule and seriously consider how
you live.

In order to save time, you must first know how you lose it. Sit down
and make a time log: “How did I spend last week?” Or, over the next
seven days, keep a record of how you spend your hours. Where does your
time go? Just by keeping a record, you’ll use your time better.

2. Utilize the present. “Make the most of every chance you
get” (Ephesians 5:16 MSG). The best time to manage your time is right
now – not tomorrow, not next week, not next year. Now!

Proverbs 27:1 says, “Never boast about tomorrow. You don’t know what will happen between now and then” (GNT).

How do you make the most of the present?

· Do it now. If you had a bank account and I were to tell you that
every morning someone was going to put in $86,400 into that bank
account – that you could spend it any way you wanted to, but at the end
of that day, whatever money you hadn’t spent from the account would be
lost – do you think you’d try to spend it? Or do you think you’d let it
go to waste? Guess what? You have 86,400 seconds every day! Utilize the
present by doing it now.

· Eliminate time wasters. “I may do anything, but everything is not
useful . . . [or] constructive” (1 Corinthians 10:23 PH). The apostle
Paul is saying that many things in life are not necessarily wrong, but
they’re also not necessary. You’ve got to eliminate the time wasters.
It’s amazing how creative we get when we have a job to do that we don’t
want to do.

3. Prioritize what’s important. “Don’t act thoughtlessly but
try to understand what the Lord wants you to do” (Ephesians 5:17 NLT).
When you talk about time management, you’ve got to do what God wants
you to do. You have just enough time to do God’s will. If you do not
have enough time right now, it means one of several things is going on:

· You’re doing something God never intended for you to do.

· You’re not doing what God intended you to do.

· You’re doing the right thing in the wrong way.

God would not give you a purpose in life and then not give you the
time to do it. So if you don’t have enough time to do everything you
need to do, it means God didn’t expect you to do it all

2008-09-11T20:37:00.000-04:00

And I'm back LOL ... On the way home tonight I discovered that I'm an old fart LOL ... I asked my son why in the world is there so much traffic tonight and he was like people got places to go and people to see unlike us who sit home and do nothing. Here lately I haven't really wanted to go any where including work :) I've been so busy reading that I don't have time for anything else. I'm reading 4 books now but actually really into just 2 of them. I did get out some this past weekend after finishing up a book on Friday night I discovered I had read book 1 and I need book 2 :( so I couldn't wait to get to the library Saturday morning to check it out so I could start reading it :). I had already pulled up the library online and knew it was a book they had and no one had it checked out. :) So once I finished my errands I went to McAlisters and ordered a bacon spud and sat and read. :) Then I came home and read until bedtime. I didn't have time for much reading on Sunday and was too stressed to read on Monday but finished my book on Tuesday. :) Last night I started reading a book with Eeyore in the title now along with Jimmy by Robert Whitlow. In fact I can't believe I'm sitting here blogging now instead of reading except I wanted to make sure I blogged about what my son had to say tonight. :)
~LaTeR~
GOD IS GOOD ... HE IS STILL IN CONTROL AND HE IS WORTHY TO BE PRAISED AND HONORED!!!

2008-09-05T16:19:00.000-04:00

Well I really should be getting some work done on my desk but I've had a headache since yesterday that will not stop. :( I'd really like to lay my head down and take a cat nap to see if that would help. I know staring at my computer screen isn't helping matters any, but hey I need to catch up on my blog. :) Maybe blogging will erase some of this tension that is causing my headache.

I didn't make it to the football game last night. :( I think from the score it had to be a pretty good game. Ninety Six played Emerald and Ninety Six won. The final score was Ninety Six 28 and Emerald 24. My son went to the game to get out of helping me around the house. Anything to do to get out of helping is his main goal. LOL

Well I really don't feel like blogging so I'm going to stop here ... I too busy watching the clock because I want to go home and lay down. :)

~LaTeR~

2008-08-19T08:53:00.000-04:00

This morning was lots better than yesterday ... we made it to the right school and I got to work right on time. :) Now getting up this morning was even harder I just wanted another 30 minutes to an hour but I bet if I had of gotten that then I would have wanted more. LOL My son wasn't too happy with me last night when I got to asking him about his dad I busted out laughing about our morning. Well needless to say he didn't find any humor in it at all like I did. :)

Well I've got to get busy now. =)

God is Good He is Still in Control and He's Worthy to be Praised and Honored!!!

~LaTeR~

2008-08-18T09:36:00.000-04:00

First off want to say that I really enjoyed going to church yesterday at NewSpring :) It was so awesome and over 100 people were saved in the service I was at. Oh and a bonus the Clemson Football team just happened to be there for the service. :) Guess if I was a Clemson fan I would have known who all those guys were walking past me LOL

Now the sad part of my blog today which I go ahead and give you permission to laugh at when you read. :) Now today was the first day back to school and since I moved the end of last year I moved my son over to Northside this year. We went on Thursday and got his schedule and met his teachers and all that good stuff. Now the funny part which when it was happening I didn't think was too funny I was so upset. :( I ended up taking my son to Merrywood this morning and dropping him off instead of at Northside. Not sure how we did this and yes I said we because Matthew was a part of the drive this morning too because where I wanted to turn he was like no that's not right. Well I dropped him off got all the way back out to the road when he was calling me saying mama you dropped me off at the wrong school. So I had to turn around go back to get in the very long line which was 30 minutes of a wait :( all of which I was crying because how could a mama drop her child off at the wrong school. Parents and the kids were staring at me because I was crying but I'm guessing they figured I had a child just starting school since I was at the elementary school, but if they'd looked closely they would have seen I didn't have child in my car at all. Once I reached the man once again asking if I was going in w/my child or dropping off when he noticed I didn't have a child and I was like no I'm picking him back up and he thought my son had gotten sick already LOL and I was like no but don't ask. Now by the time I reached my son and saw him waiting on me I just busted out laughing so hard and once he got in the car I was like it's all your fault cause you told me I need to go down to the next turn in. He was like I walked in and those kids came up to my knees and I was thinking man we must be having show and tell the first day. LOL Yeah yeah I know I shouldn't have listened to him to start with but it made sense because no one was turning in where I was wanting to turn in. Well I finally got him to the correct school and made it to work at 8:20, and thank goodness I have a great boss because when I called him to tell him I was going to be late I was just a crying and he was so sweet. :) He was like it's going to be alright. My mama was another funny one she laughed and laughed and laughed when I called to tell her what had happened. I am still smiling about it and it's 3:20 now which is what time he's getting out of school. :) I don't think I'll be able to top this one off from being the funniest or craziest thing I've ever done. I can't even blame this on having a Blondie moment.

Well I think wires got crossed this weekend ... my sister had emailed me on Friday to see if I could watch the girls over the weekend for her while she worked and I had emailed her back saying what I could do which wasn't much because I had already had things planned. So she emailed back asking if I could watch them Saturday all day and I had already told her in an email that I'd only be able to watch them Saturday evening. Well I never heard back from her on Friday so I figured she'd found someone to watch them all weekend .... WRONG but she was able to get things worked out so that she could work. :) I ended up going home from work Friday morning an hour and a half after I got to work and I went straight to bed and thank goodness I felt lots better when I got up. I was able to go and meet HOG at a back to school bash. :) That was pretty fun then I went home and read til I had to go to bed. Got up Saturday morning and cleaned on the house then got ready and headed to town. I actually thought I was riding to Greenville but didn't make that trip. :( Then I went and hung out w/a friend and ended up staying there late because of the storm. Got back home around midnight and my power had been out so I was glad I didn't try to drive in the storm. Got to bed and up early so I could get ready to go to Anderson. I really enjoyed spending time w/my friends on Sunday and going to church in Anderson. I can't wait to go back ... I could of listened to the band play a little bit longer but that's okay the final count for people saved at NewSpring Sunday was over 200 according to the pastors blog. :) Pastor Clayton King spoke Sunday at NewSpring and he was great!!!

2008-08-17T07:45:00.000-04:00

I discovered yesterday that I wished now I had of had my surgery, but I still feel like I made the right decision. I'm feeling much better today :) but I haven't been up very long yet. I don't guess a whole lot has gone on but it was a very fast week to me. I took my son to pick up his schedule and meet his teachers on Thursday from 10:30 to 12 ... I really hope that he's going to do well this year. I'm not familiar with the school at all but I haven't heard anything bad at all. :) I've talked with parents, teachers, and even past and present students and I was surprised to hear that even the kids thought the school was great. :)
It's Sunday now LOL I really got side tracked blogging yesterday. Not sure if I'll be able to blog today or not I'm heading to Anderson this morning and won't be back until sometime this afternoon. :)

Got to start blogging more

2008-08-10T08:52:00.000-04:00

Man I've got to start blogging more frequent LOL I'm forgetting things before I have a chance to write about them. This maybe a blog that will make some reading mad, but I've come to realize that my feelings are my feelings and I can't help the way I feel sometimes. I've been very busy at work then when I get home in the evenings I just drop on the couch and pick up a book and start reading until I can't hold my eyes open. :) I'm actually reading 3 books at one time now actually have 4 that I'm reading but I put one on the back burner. LOL Once I finish these books I'm going to stick to reading just one book at a time. Ha-Ha
My daughter found out that she is due March 13th :) that is just guess she wasn't sure of exact dates so she guessed a time period. LOL Guess we will find out the due date when she has her ultra sound done. So I'll update the due date once I know for sure when it is but for now assume March 13th. Wish I could share some of the text she has sent me lately LOL she would die if I blogged them, but I sure have gotten a snicker out of some of them. :)
This past week was one that really stressed me out and I haven't been that stressed in a while. We will begin at 12 am Sunday August 3rd that's when my phone rang and woke me it was my sister asking me if Travis could bring the girls he needed to go to the hospital. I think he got here around 1 am with the girls and I got them laid down and to sleep and I set my alarm clock for 7 am cause Travis said Erin would be coming right after work to get the girls. Then she wanted me to watch them Sunday night so I did. Well the baby cried and/or screamed from 7:30pm to 10:30pm and the other 2 actually laid down really good for me I thought they would go to sleep in no time. WRONG I was still up at 4 am with the older 2 girls and I have to get up at 6 am to get ready for work. So when my sister got here I told her I couldn't keep the girls on my work nights anymore but I could help out on the weekends. I talked to her a few times that week either by phone or computer. Well Thursday morning I got a phone call from one of her friends all upset because she hadn't been able to get in touch w/Erin. So I called the house no answer, called the hospital talked to a nurse there and told her I was worried about Travis' wife my sister and said could you please have Travis call me before 12 as I was leaving work early. When he hadn't called by 11:50 am I called Sandi because who else would my sister call but Sandi? So Sandi filled me in about DSS going to Erin's house and that Erin and the girls are staying w/them now. I called Erin's friend back and told her what I had found out and guess what she already knew what I had just found out she knew when it happened. Well I had asked Sandi to get Erin to call me when she got back and at 4:30 my sister still hadn't called me to let me know anything so I called back to Sandi's and did get to talk to her. I asked her if she would call and keep me informed as to what is going on w/the girls. She sent me a message that night and I'm assuming from what she said that since she is a house guest they will not let her use their phone to call her family. Well Friday went by no call then Saturday she calls saying Sandi wants to know if you can watch the girls this afternoon. I said sure but later Erin called saying that they found someone w/out bedtimes to keep the girls that way they could clean up longer. Maybe it's just me but do people not have set times (schedules) for their lives anymore? Do you not put your children on a schedule? Do you let your children do as they please? I know I'm easier on my son during the summer but it's the end of summer break now and he'll go back on a tight schedule. That should be very fun ha-ha.
Let me tell you he was so worn out when he got home Friday evening. :) He was at a missions trip Monday - Friday in KY ... they left out after church on Sunday and then drove back on Friday. He said they had them up at 7 am and they didn't get to bed until 12 am or after the whole week. We both slept in Saturday :) sort of. I had stayed up until 11:30 Friday night watching the Olympics ... now you would have thought I could have made it 30 more minutes to catch the end but thank goodness for DVR but I still have had time to go back to watch it yet. :( I've been watching the games :)
~LaTeR~
God is God He is Still in Control and He's worthy to be Honored and Praised!!!

2008-08-02T19:56:00.000-04:00

Well I found out today that I'm going to be a Grand-ma LOL ... don't know any of the facts yet she's got to go to the doctor. I met with my mom to tell her in person on mutual ground at StarBucks. LOL Can't help but laugh.

2008-07-25T19:55:00.001-04:00

Well guess what? I'm still here haven't went any where. LOL I was going to read tonight but decided I'd blog a little and maybe read some and then blog some more. :) Man not really sure where to start it's been a very busy month. My son went to came the week of the fourth and my friend from work lost her sister-in-law that week. :( I survived the day I thought would be terrible which was the 7th but then the rest of that week went down hill. :( First my air went out on that Tuesday night, got it fixed on Wednesday afternoon. :) I had counseling on that Thursday which I think was a good thing because I had a very bad day that day. :( Oh I started back with Hands of Grace on the 13th and that was awesome to me. The group is very small now but still just as loving as ever. :) They were so welcoming to me :) I guess that I had a pretty good week after that ... I got my hair cut that Thursday and then meet Hands of Grace at a church on Phoenix and that was great!! Then on that Saturday my parents had a cook out for the Robinson side of the family and I made some brownies and took. Then Sunday was church then Hands of Grace and a women's meeting that afternoon. This week Matthew left Wednesday morning for the beach and he'll be back Saturday late or Sunday in the early hour. Tomorrow Hands of Grace is performing at the nursing home ... I know they've done that several times but this will be my first. :) Well I'm going to stop here ... I know I didn't blog as much as I thought I would be I fixed me a glass of wine when I sat down and turned on some Toby Mac and it's hard to blog and bounce and sing. :) God is Good He's Still in Control and He's Worthy to be Honored and Praised!!!

2008-07-14T13:25:00.000-04:00

Still here just haven't had time to blog :( ... I'll have to have my calendar handy when I find some extra time. Yesterday I started back with Hand of Grace and that was a blast :) We learned a new song for Sunday night ... sure wish I had the music to practice to but this was sort of last minute and she didn't have time to make copies for the group.

~LaTeR~

2008-07-03T08:20:00.000-04:00

I'm still here ... things are still crazy at work. :) Guess that's a good thing because I'm staying very very busy. :) Just as soon as I find some free time (LOL) I'll have to blog a catch up blog. Things are going great for the most part the rest I'm just taking with a grain of salt, life is too short to let things keep you upset.

Good is Good, He is still in Control and He's worthy to be Honored and Praised!!!

~LaTeR~

2008-06-25T21:20:00.000-04:00

Well here it is Wednesday night and you could hear a pin drop if the air wasn't running. LOL I haven't had a chance to blog at work because it's been CRAZY! I thought about blogging on my lunch break but I figured if I didn't leave my desk I wouldn't blog I'd end up working instead. :( Now I'd rather be reading instead of sitting here blogging. LOL
Things have been going great I guess you could say. I have lots and lots of things on my mind still that are some what confusing but I'm working through all that I pray. I know that I'm growing stronger in my faith every day and if I wasn't then I think I would have a major problem. The devil has been working over time too let me tell you. He's been working lots of over time not just in my life but every where. The preacher talked about it some Sunday ... which I know I wasn't the only one who needed to hear what he said. I'm going to give the highlight here. The battle is with the source ... Psalm 13:1-6 1 Long enough, God - you've ignored me long enough. I've looked at the back of your head 2 Long enough I've carried this ton of trouble, lived with a stomach full of pain. Long enough my arrogant enemies have looked down their noses at me. 3 Take a good look at me, God, my God; I want to look life in the eye, 4 So no enemy can get the best of me or laugh when I fall on my face. 5 I've thrown myself headlong into your arms - I'm celebrating your rescue. 6 I'm singing at the top of my lungs, I'm so full of answered prayers. I copied this from "The Message" The battle isn't ours Ephesians 6:12-13 12 This is no afternoon athletic contest that we'll walk away from and forget about in a couple of hours. This is for keeps, a life-or-death fight to the finish against the Devil and all his angels. 13 Be prepared. You're up against far more than you can handle on your own. Take all the help you can get, every weapon God has issued, so that when it's all over but the shouting you'll still be on your feet. (Also taken from "The Message") Let me tell you that was something that I really needed to hear. :)
Well I ran out of time ... ~LaTeR~

God is Good, He is still in Control and He is Worthy to be Honored and Praised!!!

2008-06-21T20:05:00.000-04:00

This has been one heck of a day. Well to start off with on Friday I found out that my friends sister in-law (Rhonda) had a blood clot in her leg. I found out last night that Rhonda had really taken a turn for the worse, the blood clot went to her lung. They've only given her 2 months to live but like I told a friend of mine today the Lord is in control and we have to believe that. So I got up this morning and got ready and my parents came and got me and we went to Greenville ... I've been wanting to give Rhonda a hug since Thursday and tell her that I've been praying for her. Well on the way we came up on a motorcycle wreck (read about it here)and it didn't look good at all in fact I handed a man an ink pen to give the lady that was working on him so she could try to open up his airway. Well when I got back home from Greenville Hospital I got online to see if anything had been posted about the wreck and found out that the guy had died.

2008-06-21T09:13:00.002-04:00

Well I didn't get a chance to blog last night like I thought I was going to ... time got away from me. Then my son came in and he was 110 mph bouncing off the ways. :) May try to blog today but that will depend on what time I get home. I'm getting up from here and getting ready and heading to Greenville. ~LaTeR~

2008-06-20T19:32:00.000-04:00

Going to try my best to blog tonight ... but first I'm writing an email that I really want to get sent out tonight.

2008-06-19T08:12:00.001-04:00

Anyone who refuses to test his limits, anyone unwilling to move out of her comfort zone, is destined to live life inside the envelope. The most important developments in science, history, technology, and the arts came from taking risks."Ben Carson MD, Take the Risk

2008-06-16T10:09:00.000-04:00

Going to try to blog today ... not sure how much I will get to being that it's Monday, plus I've been given some extra work that is going to be very time consuming. :( Guess the good thing is that I got to stay in for lunch today which I had totally forgotten about. So since I'm back at my desk early going to see how much I can blog about.

My weekend was pretty good until Saturday night. Friday night I went to eat w/Meagan and Kyle and then I went by my moms to pick up my son's PlayStation 2. Got home and Meagan and Kyle came over and they hung out w/my son. I actually went and laid across my bed and watched some TV until Meagan and Kyle left. Saturday I got up kind of early let Precious out and then when she was ready to come back in I let her in and I went and started reading in a book until I couldn't hold my eyes open. So guess what I did ... I went back to sleep until my phone woke me up and then I got busy doing what I could until my son got up. My son had a wedding to go to so while he was gone I finished up washing clothes and once he got home we went to Wal-Mart. I got very sick after we got home Saturday but that's nothing new. Sunday of course was Father's Day ... I got up and got ready for church and my son went and hung out with his dad. After church I headed home grabbed me some lunch and got me in a nap before having to go visiting. It all actually worked out pretty good .... I met my parents at my grandparents house and I fixed Icey's for everyone that wanted one. :) I never really cared for them myself but let me tell you they sure were good yesterday. I had gotten me a machine that shaves the ice a couple of weeks go thinking I'd make one after walking but yesterday was only the second time ever using the machine. Maybe since I know I like them now I'll get more use out of it .... if not I already had a machine I could use instead of the one I bought. :) Got done visiting and headed home just in time for a summer storm.

**Got to get back to work now lunch break is over ... hopefully I'll be able to write some more later today. :)

2008-06-13T16:34:00.000-04:00

Adding a PS to my earlier blog from today. I sent a text message to my friend telling him I had quoted him in my blog ... well he can't pull up my blog on his phone through the web for some reason and curiosity got the best of him so he found the library in the area he was in so he could read the blog. Now I was sitting in the chair waiting on the doctor when I got his text telling me he had read my blog and the doctor walked in just as I was laughing out loud. :) Now is that funny or what?? I had been picking on him about not being able to read my blog and he showed me. LOL My sister even called me while I was waiting on the doctor to tell me everything was going to be OK, and I just whispered to her that I'm sitting in the chair waiting on the doctor to come in.
I had a GREAT check up and I don't have to go back until October. :) That is unless my Lupus gets out of control and so far I'm doing really good. The doctor just said that I needed to go ahead and start using my medicine. :( It's not even summer yet ... oh yeah and he said I could go to the beach would just have to sit under an umbrella :) Now sitting on my patio is a different story ... it's breezy at the beach. :) I seriously doubt that I'll make it to the beach this yr but will have to make some plans for next yr and save some money. :) There are ways around Lupus ... I told the doctor I was just going to become a Vampire .... LOL would have to really change up my schedule for that and for those reading my blog that don't know me from Adam I'm not a night owl ... I go to bed with the chickens and get up with the chickens except for Friday night.
~LaTeR~

GOD IS GOOD HE IS STILL IN CONTROL AND HE IS WORTHY TO BE HONORED AND PRAISED!!!

2008-06-13T12:36:00.000-04:00

Warning ... this blog is by no means written to make anyone mad at me or upset with me ... I just write my feelings and we all have them right?? Now I know you can't tell me we don't so if you feel like my blog is mean or hurts your feelings or you think its too harsh ... keep in mind we are all entitled to our own feelings and thoughts ... like a good friend told me a few weeks ago ... Our Feelings Are Never Wrong :)

Man I can't believe it's already Friday. I've had a lot on my mind this week too. Lets see where to start ... I got some very pretty flowers at work on Wednesday. :( I didn't know what in the world was going on when I was called up front and there sat a dozen roses. :( Yes another frown face ... I wasn't happy about this at all. Why couldn't they have been from some sweet guy God sent to knock me off my feet???? Now that would have been great. :) Maybe he'll have a Harley when and if that day ever happens. :)

Well Wednesday was also the day that my sister and her husband had to go to court. Would you believe that I had to find out from someone in the church that she let Travis come back home. I'm not surprised that she let him come home, and I pray that the Lord protects the girls from the life they are living in. My sister did finally call it was 5:20 pm that afternoon. Now they had went all the way home after court and she could have called me then wouldn't have taken but a second to say he's out and we are running around taking care of things. The funny thing is I already knew she wasn't going to call until she absolutely had to. Last time he was in jail and got out when she called she talked to me for 16 seconds and then I didn't hear anything out of her until a VERY long time. I'm not in shock that she let him come home because I already knew that and so did everyone else. Only she could make that decision herself and she is the one who has to live like she is living too. I know it keeps coming back to me that our preacher told her she was getting advise from and listening to the wrong people and for to look at their lives ... well I know that I'm not prefect nor is anyone else but I am here alive today and I am very grateful for that. Well all we can do is PRAY and I've got my 3 prayer partners praying with me. My sister says that her husband is going to seek help next week so that is a good sign. PS my sister called me :) isn't the Lord great!!!

Now I've decided that I'm getting out of the boat ... I'm going to stop letting people try to decide what they think is best or not best for me. This is going to be very hard for me but I've got to get a backbone and not a wishbone and I AM NOT GOING TO LET PEOPLE WALK ALL OVER ME ANYMORE!! It's past time to put my foot down to the correct people not to the ones that will listen to me when I need to vent. Enough of that :)

I'm going to the skin doctor this afternoon and I actually think this will be the best visit since I started going. I've been trying really hard to do the correct things since it has gotten hot outside. :) I know lots of people look at me like I'm crazy when I tell them I can't go outside in the sun. I'll be the first to tell you that I miss getting outside laying in the sun and going and getting in the tanning bed. I really miss getting in the tanning bed because it was very relaxing to me. Plus I'm not use to not being tanned. :( And let me tell you that bottled stuff ain't the same. My mom bought me some new stuff in the bottle to try but I haven't tried it yet ... she asked me about it the other day.

Oh I finally got around to making the dreaded call for my physical. I'm not sure why that is such a hard appointment to make ... I think because I have to go see the doctor so much ... but here lately I keep putting it off and pushing it behind me ... not sure if that is a good thing or not ... I just hate going even though my physicals have been good for the last few years. Praise the Lord for that ... having to go every 3 months was for the BIRDS. Which I think that is about what I'm averaging now. LOL that's not funny but it is funny!!!!

Well I saved the BEST news for Last .... I've been SMOKE FREE for 6 whole days!!!! and today makes 7 if I make it until bedtime. :) Now isn't that some EXCITING news???? That may not seem like a lot but I've been a smoker since I was in jr high and I have never really tired to quit I'd cut back but that was it. Well I made up my mind that I was going to quit and I went from smoking a pack a day to smoking 1/2 of a pack a day and I did that was several months. :) Then I cut back to 2 cigarettes in which I split up I smoke 1/2 at 3 and the rest of it on the way home and then a whole one before bed. Well last weekend I decided that I would beat those 2 cigarettes and I'm so VERY EXCITED to say that I did. YOU CAN DO ANYTHING YOU SET YOUR MIND TOO!!! I really believe that and with lots of prayer time I finally did something I didn't thing was possible but with God's HELP I DID IT!!!!! Can you tell I'm very excited about this??? I think since I have a few extra dollars from not buying cigarettes I'll treat myself to a pedicure tonight. :)

2008-06-11T09:48:00.000-04:00

Look what I got at work today!!!

2008-06-10T09:23:00.000-04:00

Another day is dawning .... I sure didn't want to get up this morning. :( That was my own fault ... I got home from work yesterday and hurried and got the trash up and moved the trash can around front then instead of cooking like I'd planned I fixed a salad because I didn't know what the weather was going to do. After I finished my salad I fixed me some ice cream and then I turned on the tv and fell asleep and woke up at 8:30 ... well guess what I couldn't go back to sleep. :(

2008-06-10T07:08:00.000-04:00

Just something I wanted to share w/anyone who might come across my blog.

Identifying Your Weaknesses
Day 174

Everyone has weaknesses. A person who recognizes his or her weaknesses and is willing to work on them is wise.

"You have to heal from your past relationship," says Lauren. "You have to give yourself time to realize what it is you're healing from. You might not know you're insecure or that your self-esteem is so low that you'll appreciate any type of attention. You haven't had time to figure out what went wrong. You have to grow."

Your weaknesses are reminders of God's strength and sufficiency. When you face hardships or are frustrated by your inadequacies, take a good look at the God you serve. He is bigger than your problems. He will empower you with a much greater strength than you can ever generate on your own. Let God fulfill your needs because He is the only one who can. Here is how Paul viewed a burden he was carrying:

"At first I didn't think of it as a gift, and begged God to remove it. Three times I did that, and then he told me, My grace is enough; it's all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness.
Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ's strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size—abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become" (2 Corinthians 12:8-10 Msg).

Strong Father, reveal my weaknesses to me so I can work on them with Your help. I want to be strong in You. Amen.

2008-06-09T10:12:00.001-04:00

Oh my it's already Sunday, where did the weekend go? Well lets see .... Friday after work I met my sister and got Becca, Katie Grace and Lydia went to NC for the weekend. Got home and waited on my son to get home from swimming and for it to cool down so we could ride over to the Relay for Life in Abbeville. :) So me, my son, Becca, and Meagan and Kyle rode over to Abbeville I'd guess for an hour then headed back. The baby cried all the way home :( Got her a bottle and she was just fine. Got her to sleep then me and my son crashed for the night ... he had to get up early the next morning because he had things he wanted to get done.

Well the next morning my sister got there to get the baby and I let her in and my dog out and I went back to sleep only to be woke up right after she left by the dog scratching to get back in. :( So I went ahead and got up and fixed my milk went and went and told my son that he wanted to get up early. LOL We both sleep late every Saturday. Well I went and got back in my bed read a few pages in my book and went back to sleep. I remember my son trying to wake me up but I was just too tired to get up so he ended up calling his dad and getting him to do the things for him that that he wanted me to do with him. :( I didn't even know he was gone and didn't even hear my phone ring. Well by the time he got home I was awake but he didn't want anything to do with me he was rushing around trying to get back out the door ... he's gone on a fishing trip for a few days. So I got me a shower and headed out to the grocery store and I went at the wrong time let me tell you I wanted to buy this to fix to eat and that to fix to eat LOL and I don't fix anything hardly ever at home to eat. Got home put the groceries up and sat down and waited for my sister to bring the baby so I could go out to eat. :) Went to eat and the baby was great until I put her in the car to go back home and she cried all the way home and then cried until she went to sleep except for when she had a bottle in her mouth. :( Not sure why she doesn't like to sit in the swing or lay on a pallet but let me tell you she doesn't. Got her to bed then I did my settling down time reading and watching TV. I didn't realize how good I had it with my son until now. I get to do my settling down time early when it's just me and him and I get to bed around 9 or shortly after. :) Since I've been helping my sister out I don't get to settle down myself until after 9 now.

Sunday I got up to the baby fixing a very smelly present for her mom. LOL :) My sister had told me that instead of waking us up she'd wait until we woke up and she take a nap in her car. :) That's why I said Becca fixed her mom a present ... I got to just go outside wake her up and tell her she had a very nice present inside. LOL Well I got ready for church and ended up with a little extra time so I laid down watching TV and woke up at 2 pm. :( So I fixed me a salad for lunch and piddled around and watched TV losing track of time again. I had planned on having my bath out of the way and cooking before my sister brought Becca back but that didn't happen. So I ended up cooking a cheap pizza instead of cooking the chicken I had gotten to cook. I'm not sure how my sister can cook or get a bath in the evenings. Becca cried the whole time I was in the tub and the while I had my super. :( She had already had 2 bottles so she should have been a happy camper but she wasn't ... my mom calls her the hip baby.

I decided last night that when my children have babies I'll watch them for an hour or 2 but that will be it. Now once they are walking and can bathe themselves they can spend the night. :) I'm just to set in my ways for little ones right now is all I can figure out. I don't mind them visiting but once it's time to settle down for the evening visiting time is over. LOL Good thing I wasn't like that with my 2 but I don't remember ever having to hold them continually ... I could put them in the playpen or the swing and they were just as happy as if I were holding them. Maybe I was just lucky I don't have a clue.

Oh I have great news ... I've been smoke free for 2 whole days working on day 3 now. :) I'm so excited about this because this has been very hard for me. Especially the last 2 nights I was ready to pull my hair out to go smoke but I worked through it. I finally told my mom yesterday ... I wanted to wait until I could say I hadn't smoked at all to tell her. She was like I knew you didn't smell like smoke when you were picking up Matthew but didn't know you were quitting. This coming July 6th or 7th she will be quit for a year. I think she told me her quit date was the day I got married which would have been the 7th. I can't believe it's been almost a yr since I had married Tommy and before I know it it will be October a year since he sent a text telling me he had a girl friend. I've come a long way since that day in October and can actually say that things are going pretty good. Yeah I still have bad days but more good days than bad now. :) I actually dreamed about Tommy last week but I think that had something to do w/his brother being at church June 1st. His brother wouldn't even look at me much less speak to me. :( I'm guessing that he was just feeling too quilt for his part of the destruction of my life. He knew exactly how his brother was doing and still married us knowing that his brother wasn't being faithful to me the whole time. I still haven't figured out how he played it off ... I thought we talked about everything and shared everything ... when he was sick I'd be sick ... it was just weird ... we were great together or so I thought. Oh boy I was very wrong!!! I think I went off on a tangent here ... LOL I also just realize I haven't been taking my happy pill with everything going on I've forgotten to take it. :(

Oh I'm backing to reading the book "Boundaries" and let me tell you I'm learning a lot of information and I've only read not even 1/2 of the book. The main thing that I've learned in the past week since I started back reading this book is that I am going to take back control of my life!! I am not going to let people manipulate me anymore!! Why should I? Yeah people will turn their backs on me and yeah that will hurt but in the long run I'll be a lot better off. :) Guess I'll have to let you know on that one ... I'm talking pretty BIG but this book makes you want to talk pretty BIG. ha-ha Hope that I will be able to handle this phase of my life ... hey I really think this will be a piece of cake compared to the things of my past that I've been through ... now I've just got to find the guts to set my boundaries and not let ANY cross them. :) Quote from the book "God had no problem telling Paul that he would not take away his thorn. He tells all of us NO quite often! God doesn't worry this his boundaries will injure us. He knows we are to take responsibility for our lives -- and sometimes NO helps us do just that." Why should I worry about about my boundaries hurting someone .... re-read the quote above.

Well I think I'm going to stop here for today may or may not write some more this evening ... that will depend on the number of chores I get done. ha-ha

Oh yeah I did start this on Sunday but didn't finish so wrote some more today Monday. LOL

~LaTeR~

2008-06-05T14:29:00.000-04:00

I'm hoping today is the day. :) Hmmmmmm made you wonder what I am talking about. LOL Well today wasn't the day so I won't say anything will save it for the day. :) Your wondering now why would you say something if you weren't going to tell. Well I started this early this morning and now it's after 2 in the afternoon. I've been trying to get my desk cleaned up and things taken care of that get the back burner when I'm super busy.

Let me tell you ... my son got me to stressing yesterday afternoon then he got to rushing me and I dumped a whole cup of Dr. Pepper in my car. :( I'll also tell you that he will be out there Saturday morning cleaning my car too ... that is if I don't forget. He had let time slip up on him so he was rushing me because he needed to be somewhere by a certain time and I did get him there sort of on time. So after dropping him off I had an evening all to myself, and at first it was like what in the world do I do? So I got me a shower and washed my hair and sat down with my book until I had lost track of time and it was past bed time. LOL I need to stay on top of my reading and get this book finished. I didn't get very much read last night because I was trying to get caught back up with where I had left off. LOL Guess that will teach me not to stop in the middle of a chapter and go all the way to the end. ha-ha I did get to read on my lunch break today which would have been relaxing but my son ended up calling stressing me out. He had me so confused I ended up telling him we'd talk about it later. I did call him back to get some clarification as to how he was going to do somethings and the reason he had me confused was that he has his days of the week mixed up. LOL Thought only grown-ups did that. I plan on having a non-stressful evening tonight ... going to get me a shower, fix me some ice cream and curl up with my book until bedtime. :) Going to put my phone on silent or turn it off one and I don't answer the house phone so there will be nothing that can stress me out. Hope I'm not getting ahead of myself. LOL

Got to stop here for today fixing to be buried.

~LaTeR~

God is Good ... He is Still in Control and He is worth to be Honored and Praised!!!

2008-06-04T11:17:00.000-04:00

Oh I wanted to make sure that I said this was Wednesday ... I've been thinking all day long it is Thursday so I've lost a day somewhere. LOL

Well going to start back today where I stopped last time I blogged. :) I did finish the topic I was on and was fixing to start in on something else so that is where I'm starting today. :) Hope that anything that I write doesn't make anyone who might be reading mad. :) Here goes ...

Lets see now I'm going to try to go from memory. I had gone to bed some what earlier on May 20th because it had been an exhausting day. Well my phone rang some time after 12 and by the time I heard it, it stopped but then it rang again. It was my sister calling to tell me her husband had been arrested. So as you can imagine that woke me up wide away. The girls were on their way to Easley to stay with the grandparents and my sister kept the baby with her because she breast feeds. Well her husband was arrested for CDV (Criminal Domestic Violence) which in my own opinion was long over due ... which to hear my sister tell it you'd think different. The only reason he was arrested this time was that someone else called the cops. Now she might correct me if I'm wrong so I'm going to keep on. I've very grateful for the couple that she did call and them calling the police. :) I got off the phone with my sister after telling her she needed to get some rest because she was going to be in for some long days ahead. I tried to go back to sleep but it just didn't happen, so once morning time came I got up and got ready like I would normally do and got my son up and on his way to school and I called my boss and left him a message that I needed to take the day off that something was going on with my sister and I needed to be there for her. I had already called my sister and talked to her and told her just to come to my house and we'd take my car to town. So I waited and waited on my sister to come so we could go get the things done that she needed to get done so we could go to her house and get it cleaned up. Oh yeah that was the other thing the cop told her that he was giving her until Friday to have the home cleaned up, and they took pictures of everything. We did everything that we could at town and got to her house after lunch. Oh boy let me tell you ... I called two of my friends to see if they could come and help after work and they did :) and when we left I think it was almost dark on Wednesday evening and I didn't feel like we had gotten much done but it was some better than when I first got there. :) I also called and talked with my boss on Wednesday afternoon to ask for Thursday off which he said would be fine but that I had to be back at work on Friday. So now it's Thursday May 22nd and I head back out to my sisters house to get started back cleaning and I had it set up so Meagan could come and help and she worked from 10:30 am to 9:30 pm that day. Also my two friends came back after they had said they wouldn't be able to because of work schedules but it worked out to where they could come back after work. We got lots done on Thursday or so I think we did. Meagan got the girls room cleaned and then I got her started on the kitchen with me. So by Thursday you could sit down in the living room where ever you wanted to sit, the bathroom was clean as well as the hallway and the girls room. The kitchen was taking shape as well. :) I ended up exploding that evening but I am not going to share those details here because even though everything I was saying was true it was just something that needed to be said and now that is done and over with, but I will tell you I don't think I've ever been as mad or upset as I was that evening and I never want to be again. Then on Friday of course I had to go back to work and my sister had a friend of hers daughter come and help her out with the house, they worked on getting things put in proper places and making coverings for the cabinets and all. She also got the dryer from the building brought up and hooked up and the one that wasn't working put outside. :) I didn't go back until Monday (May 26th) right before lunch so that I could take all the clean clothes back to my sisters house. My mom had came on Wednesday and Thursday and picked up dirty clothes to take home and wash for me. I picked the clothes up on Friday from my mom and then on Saturday I sorted the clothes by sizes and seasons and packed them in boxes or totes. Now all these boxes and totes wouldn't fit in my car so I had to get a friend to help me take them out to my sisters. Oh yeah and when I bought the totes I also bought a curtain rod and curtain for the girls room. :) Let me tell you the girls were very excited about it too. Well I took Lydia with me and we went to lunch w/one of my friends and then we went grocery shopping. Back at my house I decided that I would cook (ha ha funny I know but I can cook) for them so my sister wouldn't have to worry about that. Now let me tell you I burned my arm but that's nothing new any time I cook I get burned but this was the worst one in a long time. My arm hurt all night long!!! Its been 9 days since I burnt my arm and it's finally healing but you can still see it. :( Now I'm going to fast forward to Thursday May 29th ... I had counseling which by the way is still going good don't think I'll have to go much longer but there's still one issue that I need to deal with before I stop. This was the first night for me to keep all three girls. Well a friend of mine took the 2 oldest (ages 5 and 3) while I took the 4 month old with me to my counseling and that is when things got interesting .... we (me, my son, and the baby) got trapped in the elevator. :( Long story short we got out, I went to counseling, let there to go pick up the other 2 girls from McDonald's and we headed home for baths and bed .... now that was interesting. I think I was just so stressed that everyone could just tell and it stressed them but things went very well I thought for the first night. Then I had them on Friday May 30th and we went to out to eat w/my daughter and one of my friends. Let there and went by the drug store and then home ... and guess what all 4 of us had a bath before 9 pm. LOL I had the older too jump in after I gave the baby a bath. :) The girls I know thought I was crazy cause I set the bottle in the bathtub while I bathed the baby. LOL While the other 2 got there bath I sat there and fed the baby and she fell asleep. Got her laid down the girls out and settled to watch some TV while I got my bath and then we watched a movie until we fell asleep. :) I watched the girls until Saturday afternoon so that my sister could catch some zzzz's and then we went to the grocery store and then I headed home to put up groceries and rest. Sunday of course was church and then my normal Sunday routine. :) Then there was Monday :( June 2nd first day of the month at work so I was a busy bee. :) I either called or sent my sister a message to please get the girls their baths before I got them because I wasn't going to be able to handle that. :( Well let me tell you our evening went great ... I cooked mini cheeseburgers which I don't think Lydia liked at all. Got the kitchen cleaned up, the baby fed and we watched about 30 minutes of TV then it was bed time. I told my sister how much easier the evening was with her giving the girls a bath so I think she is going to continue that for me. :) Matthew is finally coming around and having something to do with the girls. :) I think I have that figured out though and I've talked with my sister about it and she says that WILL NOT happen. Reason I think Matthew has been avoiding the girls is that he thinks if he gets close he'll get hurt. Let me explain ... anything he's ever gotten close to except for me has gone out of his life suddenly and he doesn't understand the why or reasoning behind it he just knows it hurts like crazy to put it nicely. You know one day he had a dad the next thing he knew he was gone. Then there was Tommy for lets say 6 yrs maybe more and he just out of the blue quit seeing us. So the only thing he knows that is constant in his life is me .... guess that's why he is such a mama's boy. :-) I'm not going to complain even though it can drive you crazy at times, better enjoy it while I can. Well I think I'm update to date on everything that my mind can remember. Oh yeah my son lost his phone in the lake Memorial Day weekend so we had to go get him another phone last night. :( I was going to try to make it to church tonight but I don't think I can make that happen. I've got to take Matthew to his cousins tonight which will make things a little easier on me the rest of the week. (Shame shame on me for even saying that and thinking that) My sister has her start up counseling session tomorrow night which is kind of a get to know you and what's going on and why are you here sort of thing and the girls are going to be in counseling too. :) I'm meeting her when I get off work so that I can watch the girls while she chats with the counselor. Then on Friday I'll get the girls after I get off work and then I'm guessing my sister is picking them up on her way home because they are spending Saturday and Sunday with one of Katie Grace's friends. I'll keep the baby those 2 nights. Then it looks like I'll have them on the 12th and 13th of June.

Well I think I better stop here before I get fired. ~LaTeR~

GOD IS GOOD, HE IS STILL IN CONTROL AND HE'S WORTHY TO BE HONORED AND PRAISED!!!

2008-06-02T10:50:00.000-04:00

Well well it's been a while and lots has happened, and I will try to blog about as much as I can today. Not sure how much time I will have to blog because it is the first day of the month. :) VERY VERY BUSY DAY!!!

Well it's now after lunch and I didn't get much written before lunch. LOL Here goes .... My son's Grandmother passed away May 17th which I think he had a good idea that she wasn't going to make it much longer. I had taken him over to see her on Thursday May 15th and it wasn't looking good then. :( The family did the friends and family visitation on Monday evening and had the funeral on Tuesday afternoon. The funeral was really sweet but there was several things that really didn't add up and wasn't very fair to her family or so I thought. I did get some pictures of Matthew dressed up ... too bad it had to be for the occasion it was, but he was really handsome. :)

After the funeral was over I decided that I'd go across the street to my Grandmothers grave. I wish now that I had not of because it really upset me to no end. Now let me tell you why it upset me ... well here it was May and her children still had Christmas flowers on the grave. :( Well that really hit home because Matthew had talked about guess the family would fall apart now since Grandma was gone and I was trying to tell him that wouldn't happen or that I hoped it wouldn't happen. Then when I went to visit my grandmothers grave and saw the Christmas flowers that just made me lose it. I called my mama crying it's a wonder she even knew what I was talking about.

2008-05-28T09:44:00.000-04:00

I'm still here just so much going on right now that I haven't had time to blog. Just as soon as I get some free time I'll blog and you better look out because I'm sure it will be a long one. :)

GOD IS GOOD, HE IS STILL IN CONTROL AND HE'S WORTHY TO BE HONORED AND PRAISED!!!

2008-05-16T09:53:00.000-04:00

I've got a lot going on in my head right now. LOL So once I collect my thoughts and feelings I'll blog. :) ~LaTeR~

Found this and just had to share ... Think left and think right and think low and think high. Oh, the thinks you can think up if only you try! Now think hard and let me know who the quote is from.

2008-05-14T16:22:00.000-04:00

Man I can't believe it's already Wednesday. I've been non-stop the past 3 days. I didn't know if I was coming or going ... LOL. I don't even think I thought about my blog yesterday at all. :( So right now I'm waiting on one of my co-workers to get off the phone so I can get back busy, so I thought I'd jot down a few things before I forget about them. If I re-jot down something I blogged about sorry.

Lets start with Sunday evening ... the wind was something awful on this day. It was just a little scary too. It was too windy to sit outside and read so I ended up in my room sitting in front of the window so I could watch the trees. I think that I've been behind 5 chapters exactly every night since Friday on my Bible reading. I am still reading boundaries but haven't been able to read in it but once this week. :( Anyways back to Sunday ... I got everything I wanted to get done done believe it or not. Or at least I think I did and I even cooked.

Monday was just a non-stop day even after work I was non-stop. Not sure about the after work part. LOL I think eating at my moms got me off my schedule, but don't get me wrong it sure was good. :) Tuesday was about the same as Monday and even after work I ended up eating at my moms.

Oh and I almost forgot on Sunday I got a text message on my phone wishing me a "Happy Mothers Day" from Breanna ... can you believe that???? I wrote her back "Thanks" and didn't hear anything else from her. Meagan also sent me a message telling me Happy Mothers Day too.

Well I'm at home now and seeing how I'm behind in my reading I think I'd better go heat up super and and get busy reading. ~LaTeR~

GOD IS GOOD, HE IS STILL IN CONTROL AND HE'S WORTHY TO BE HONORED AND PRAISED!!!

2008-05-12T13:14:00.000-04:00

Will not be blogging today .... sorry. :(

2008-05-11T10:37:00.000-04:00

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!! Well it's already the last day of the weekend. :( Got back up sick today, didn't get sick yesterday at all. I went and got my mom and we went and got our toes done. Next time I go I'm going to get my tips green instead of white ... the girl that did my toes had hers done that way and it was so cute. :) I think a woman needs to get her feet done once a month at least, will see if I can fit that into my budget. LOL If we stopped going out to eat it would be too hard to fit it in. :) I think seriously I'm going to have to change my diet. :( Maybe the things I ate yesterday are just now making me sick ... guess that's a thought. Well I'm about to be sick again will be back ~LaTeR~ that is when I can get the seat back. LOL
Back for a few minutes ... my son is washing his dishes so he can get online. :-) I've gotten my shower, the dishwasher loaded and dishes washed. Then I watered all my inside flowers. Hoping I can get my son to help me clean the clutter in front of the bar area. Then I want to fold all my winter clothes and put them in boxes and unpack my summer things that are still packed and put them on hangers. Then I plan on finishing yesterdays Bible reading and doing today's and then reading and in between on breaks cleaning here and there. I have another clutter area I'd like to work on some. :)
Well I guess that is all for now folks. LOL
~LaTeR~

2008-05-10T07:23:00.000-04:00

It's bright and early I guess you could say on Saturday morning at 7:20. I just got up and for the life of me I do not know why because I was up very late. I have no idea where the time went ... I got to working on the puzzle and listening to music and before I knew it it was after 12 and I still had reading I wanted to do in my book that I have started. So I grabbed it and finished reading the chapter I was on and then I crashed. :) Now here I am once again in front of my computer, but not for long I need to get my shower and put on my makeup so I will be ready to hit the road in a little while. :) So I think I'll stop here and may or may not be back today. ~LaTeR~
PS. I had some crazy dream last night but I think it had to do with one of the songs I was listening to last night. :(

2008-05-09T08:34:00.000-04:00

Well here it is Friday and I'm back sick!!! This time I think it's my medicine causing me to be sick. I really hate this because I have so much at work that needs to be done. :( Maybe I will get to feeling better in a little while and I can go in to work, but so far I've been home a little over 30 minutes and I keep having to RUN to the bathroom. My mom says I need to start a bland diet which doesn't sound very good to me. Here is a link to a bland diet and let me tell you I wasn't impressed at all. No chocolate milk, no tea, no soda, no tomato anything, no nothing on the list that I like!!! :( I've told several people that I'm just going to stop eating but then my belly talks to me and I give in. LOL I'm sitting here with a glass of tea now while I'm typing this blog. I'd go fix me a pot of coffee but coffee is on the list as a do not drink!! :( Enough of that lets move on to something else. :)
On a better note I hope I'm feeling better tomorrow because I want to take my mom to get her a pedicure as well as me one. :) I need to remind her this afternoon when I talk to her, I said something to her on Sunday but I'm sure she has forgotten. :) Kind of wish I knew about what time we would be going so I could set up an appointment. I've heard if you have an appointment you can just go right in with no waiting.
Well I'm going to take a break now and go lay down real still and see if that will settle my stomach. :) Seems like moving around just makes it worse!
Guess what .... I didn't go lay down I've sat right here at this computer and picked me out a variety of music and posted it to my blog as you have already figured out I have music on here now. :) I figure my sister will not like some of the songs so I did pick out some I thought she might enjoy listening to that I like ... she will have to skip to song 8 I think even though the Christian songs start before then. :) I wasn't able to find my song that I like though. :( but I did some more searching and guess what I found it ... that's very exciting!!! Wonder if anyone can pick out which one is my favorite??? And no it's not the first song in the list that would be too easy. LOL
Well now it's after 6pm ... I laid down and I slept over 2 hours. I just had 1/2 of a potato from McAlister's and waiting to see how it is going to do on my stomach. :) ... so far I haven't been sick. :) I just pulled up my blog page so that I can sit here and listen to the songs I picked out ... I noticed some of them weren't the whole song when I was searching but I didn't pay attention to see if I picked any out that wasn't the whole song. Maybe I'll get lucky and they will be fine. I've done my Bible in 90 days challenge reading for today. :) I just started on chapter 3 in the book "Boundaries", and I plan on reading some in it tonight I guess after I finish writing here. I'd also like to work on the puzzle some ... it hasn't been touch since Sunday when my parents were over. :( I'm beginning to wonder if it will ever get finished. LOL Well it feels like my stomach is fixing to be upset from eating so I think I'll stop here for today. ~LaTeR~
GOD IS GOOD, HE IS STILL IN CONTROL AND HE'S WORTHY TO BE HONORED AND PRAISED!!!

2008-05-08T14:08:00.000-04:00

Guess what??? It's Thursday!!! So far the day is going pretty good and it's already the down side of the day. :) I've done my daily Bible reading for today and started "Boundaries When to Say Yes How to Say No To Take Control of Your Life" at lunch. Didn't jot down any notes I couldn't find an ink pen so I will have to go back and see what I wanted to write down. Well just finished doing that before I forgot to go back. :) My son is going to have a cow when he finds out I've started another book. LOL He was in one of the worst moods yesterday ever I think but he knew I was upset with him over his interim report that I got. When we got home he cleaned his room and bathroom ... I had already told him that morning we were going to clean house and he was like why the house is already clean. Well maybe to him but not to me ... and guess what? ... I didn't do anything last night! :( I really wanted to at least load some dishes into the dishwasher and wash the ones that couldn't be put in the dishwasher.

Well I've got to stop here ... I've gotten very busy and need to gets some things done in the next 30 minutes. Not sure if I can blog at home guess that will depend on who gets to the computer chair first. LOL

Well it's after 8 pm now ... man where does time go???? I came home and changed my clothes and grabbed me a chair outside after watering my lawn and flowers. Guess I got so into my book that I lost track of time. I really didn't think I'd take that many notes from the book after reading the first chapter but so far I've been just a jotting down notes. :) I sort of wish now I had of read this book first then the "Boundaries with Kids", but that's okay. I really need to stay away from the bookstores until I read what I've got to read now. :) It's hard making a choice which one to start.

GOD IS GOOD, HE IS STILL IN CONTROL AND HE IS WORTHY TO BE HONORED AND PRAISED!!!

2008-05-07T16:02:00.000-04:00

Well lets see how far I can get today with my blog. It's already 3:30 in the afternoon on Wednesday. I've been non-stop since I got to work today. :) Felt fine except for a little cramping until I had lunch. Now I'm back to where I just feel like I just need to quit eating!!! My doctor put me on Cipro 500mg and I think he thought I had a virus too but how can a virus last for 5 days???? The side effects of the medicine are just about the same as my symptoms so I don't have a clue how I'm suppose to know when I'm getting better. :(

So anyways I left work at 1:30 yesterday to go see my doctor, went to Wal-mart to have my medicine filled, picked up my son and we went to the hospital before my counseling session and then we headed home. Just to leave about 30 minutes later because I realized it was Tuesday and you know what that means and if you don't it's KFC night. LOL My sons Grandmother is just not good at all. I think they are suppose to move her to the hospice house today. I think that would be much better for her and the family.

My counseling session went great last night. She was telling me that she had been talking to different people about me. She said I had impressed her with my notes that I was taking from a book I was reading. I had left my book and steno book in the car instead of taking it up with me since I knew my son wasn't going to go in and talk with her. Most times I have my book or knitting that I take up with me. Last night I actually had printed out my Bible reading and since I was a day behind I had it to read. (Now I'm caught up with my reading but being so sick on Monday got me behind) I told her that my son had been doing great and that I was feeling lots better here lately ... I've cut my dose down on my medicine and I haven't been skipping days except the weekends. I think the only thing I've really been worried about is the scales and I didn't realize how bad they were until yesterday. To me or in my humble opinion the scales should be going down instead of up. I just can't believe that I weigh as much as I do. :( It's very disappointing to me.

Well I've already told you I'm caught up on my 90 day challenge that is I have today's reading to do. :) I'm really on the last chapter of "Boundaries with Kids" I miss counted the chapters I had left last time I wrote about it. LOL Needless to say I didn't finish the book this weekend. Hopefully tonight I'll get some reading done and maybe that will include getting to this book and finishing it. :) Still not sure what book I want to start next. I have a Joyce Meyer book I want to start but I also want to start reading "Boundaries". Guess I will have to see which one I'm leaning towards more.

I haven't gotten to walk any this week and not sure if I will get to the end of the week or not. Guess I'll have to see how I'm feeling after work on Thursday and Friday. Just looked at the calendar and my sister isn't working on Thursday and Friday so maybe I will try to walk. I know I've got something planned for Saturday and I usually don't walk on Sunday or Wednesday those are my official days off from walking.

Oh I finally asked my mom about why the doctor was telling her her blood was bad when she brought it up yesterday. She keeps telling me about her blood being bad but wouldn't tell me why and I was like they just don't tell you its bad. They are watching her liver and her cholesterol. She was having to go every 6 months but was told this time it was improving but he wants her to come back in 4 months for a re-check. That seems weird to me if it was an improvement why 4 months instead of the normal 6 months.

Well I'm going to end here today I'm sure I left something out but I need to get back to work. :)

One more thing ... when I was at Wal-Mart yesterday I picked up some Miracle Grow for my flowers and lawn and once I got home I went outside to water everything and you'll never guess what I saw/found not one but two black widow spiders.

GOD IS GOOD, HE IS STILL IN CONTROL AND HE IS WORTHY TO BE HONORED AND PRAISED!!!

2008-05-06T11:35:00.000-04:00

Well it's Tuesday and it's 11:30 and I'm still at work ... and that is a good thing. Guess I will find out in 30 minutes how my stomach is doing today. My headache is back and I think it may be worse than it was yesterday. :( I did get the time entered this morning and I'd like to get these invoices sitting here on my desk entered if I do end up having to go to the doctor this afternoon. My boss told me this morning that he wished I would go to the doctor. I just told him I was just being stubborn. Believe me it comes natural to me ... I got it from my mom.

My son's grandmother was put in the hospital yesterday and it doesn't look like she will be going back home unless she tells them that is where she wants to spend her last days. Her children and her sister decided this morning that they do not want CPR or a breathing tube used on her. Right now she has a mask on helping her to breathe. The way it sounds they are just keeping her comfortable and that she has really given up. It's such a hard thing for them I know. I am planning on taking my son by there tonight after we get out of counseling.

Well now it's after 8:30 in the evening ... had a change of plans for tonight. Will have to try to blog tomorrow I got up and lost my seat at the computer so I decided to read while my son was online. ~LaTeR~

2008-05-04T10:05:00.000-04:00

Well the day as gotten off to a rough start. Every little thing is just getting on my nerves, and that's not good. :( My son said something to me about being in a bad mood and I told him not to do anything to upset me then. Reckon if that will do any good. I think today is the day he's going to learn to wash clothes ... he's 12 and he needs to start learning. I think unless he changes he'll make a good husband to some lucky girl one day. :)
Well I think I'm going to go get a shower and see how that makes me feel. I just ate a biscuit and I'm trying to wait to see if it is going to make me sick or not. Once I get my shower I'm going to read in my Bible and then I'm going to try to finish up the "Boundaries with Kids" ... I'm finally down to 2 1/4 Chapters left ... I didn't realize taking notes while reading a book would take you so long to read ... but I think I've gotten some pretty good notes to refer back to. I've written 33 pages in a steno book full of notes (just writing on the fronts of the pages). Will try to blog some more this afternoon and I'll update on my stomach as I'm headed to the restroom now. :(
The above is my blog I had yesterday and didn't get back to finish it. It's now Monday morning 9:05 and I'm at home. :( My doctor is off today and the nurse seemed to think I have some kind of bug wanted to know if I had been out of the country ... I think it's more than that. If I'm still sick tomorrow my doctor will be working the afternoon hours. I know I'm cramping like crazy like so I guess I'll take some pain medicine and let it knock me out and sleep all day. :( I did notice yesterday afternoon that after lunch I didn't get sick ... I came home took a very short nap and we went to Lowe's and I about didn't make it home. It was like walking around is what made me sick. Now I didn't walk Friday but I did do a short walk on Saturday and ended up sick and then yesterday just walking around Lowe's. :( Guess if I do any walking this week it will be the very end of the week because I'm taking today off and have an appointment tomorrow night and Wednesday is church.

2008-05-03T20:39:00.004-04:00

This is the picture of the side corner of my yard. Yeah I know the grass looks pitiful. :( My flowers sure are pretty. :-) This is my pretty I got today at K-mart. :) Just wanted to share these two pictures so THAT'S ALL FOLKS

2008-05-03T11:13:00.000-04:00

Well it's Saturday morning and I'm blogging. Yeah I know I can't believe it either. :) I got up before 6 this morning because crazy me set the tv alarm to go off. Then I ended up not being able to go to sleep so I read in my Bible for a little bit then tried to go back to sleep and slept to almost 10. Got up and went outside to pull birdseed weeds out of on of my flower pots and watered the grass and my flowers then came back in and washed up the dishes in the kitchen sink and I've made one gallon of tea and working on the 2nd gallon now. :) It's 11:11 and I'm taking a break. :) Not sure how much I am going to get done my stomach is still cramping really bad. :( It started last yesterday afternoon and I got in touch with my walking buddies and asked if they would be mad if we didn't walk, but if they were going to mad I was going to try to walk. If I'm feeling up to it later this afternoon I may try to walk. Right now I'm wanting to go to Office Max to get me a desk chair ... I've never really thought I needed one but sat in one last night and I really liked it and it's on sale or clearance one and it fit me to a T. LOL Matthew said if I go to make sure he is with me when he goes. He said last night we wants to work there and wanted to know how old you have to be. :)
Oh I worked on my puzzle a little bit last night .you really can't tell though. It's a Thomas Kinkade 1000 piece puzzle and it's harder than I thought it would be or it maybe that I haven't really tried to work on it much. :( We are taking it by spells. Below is a picture of our progress. :)

The picture to the right is 4 of the flowers in my back patio area. The 3 bottom flower pots are ones that I hand painted. My yard is a work in progress ... I'm trying to get my sod to take root and turn GREEN right now. I'll try later this afternoon to take some pictures of the yard so I can post to my blog. :) And now that I know how the inserting pictures works and all, now I can take some pictures of some of my knitting and also insert in my blog. :) Which oh yeah I'm sure if knitting needles had feelings they would be very upset with me right now. :(
Well it's now 3:40 pm and I'm back home. :) We went and got a chair for the computer desk. :) Its not the one he wanted but the one I wanted. :) It's so comfortable. :) Now I just need come new batteries for my camera or better yet start saving and shopping around for a new one. :) Meant to look while I was at K-Mart but I ended up getting sick in there so we hurried and paid for my items and left. Got home and unloaded the car and went ahead and went outside and planted my new flower and replanted another one that was outside. Will get a picture to post maybe tomorrow. I need to get a picture of my son sitting outside covered up with a blanket in my chair and post. LOL Then came back in and got my chair put together. :) And now I'm enjoying it ... it's so comfortable. I don't even want to get up, but I have got to so I can get ready to go walk. :) Oh I remembered one more thing I got me some new pens because I was tired of having to light the end of the pen with my lighter to write. :)
God is Good, He is still in Control and He's worthy to be Honored and Praised!!!

2008-05-02T11:32:00.000-04:00

I've made it to Friday Yippee!!!! I've done really well this week if I must say so myself. :) I've walked everyday except for Wednesday and that normally isn't a night we walk. :) I started the Bible in 90 Challenge on Tuesday and so far I've kept up with the reading involved. :) The real test will be this weekend when everything just goes to shambles for some reason. Which last weekend I did pretty good except for Sunday and that was because I was very weak. :( My day has started out so so ... Mike came to get our son for school at 7:30 :( then they got into and Mike was leaving without him and my son was like mama you've got to take me to school and I hollered and Mike and TOLD him he couldn't do that to me. Don't show up late and then think I can adjust my time schedule my hours aren't come and go as you please. I have no idea what he was thinking but he was making me angry.

I've now got my work from yesterday and today's work so this will be a short blog. :) Plus I'm leaving work early to run an errand. You know if I had enough PTO time I think I would never work on Friday ... I'd rather have every Friday off than to take a solid week off I think. Maybe I'm getting bored with my job who knows. Coming up in July will be my 6th anniversary for being here at my job. I keep saying I'm going to apply at the hospital but I haven't updated my resume yet. I think they have just as good of benefits as I have here. Only thing I don't think I would like would be scheduling my days off. Here like today I just went and told me boss I needed to leave an hour early, or I can come in on Monday morning and tell him I would like to be off on Friday and that is just fine. I'm not a planner when it comes to taking time off from work guess because I never have had to do that.

Oh yeah I plugged in my I-Pod last night and I thought it was syncing but got to work this morning and found out it didn't sync ... guess I did something wrong or my son did something because I did notice that my I-pod didn't look connected this morning. That reminds me I actually unhooked the DSL instead of my I-Pod from the computer ... don't ask I think I was having a blond moment. LOL Guess I just need to stay away from my computer in the mornings because it also puts me behind getting ready for work. In fact I don't think I got dress until after 7:15 this morning :( I am normally dressed by 7:00 and ready to go.

Now it's 30 minutes until lunch time and I'm ready to eat my shoe. I've started taking vitamins in the mornings before leaving for work but I am thinking I'm going to have to change up and take them at lunch. Only problem with that is they make me gag. :( Sometimes it takes me 3 or 4 tries to get it down. :( My son is also having trouble with the ones I got him and he didn't even take his this morning because he couldn't get it down. Guess I passed that trait to him. He can take small pills like me but the big ones get both of us. :(

Going to see how much I can get done before lunch so I'm stopping here for now. May or maybe post some more after lunch.

I am at home now it's 9:34 at night and I've gotten my computer working fast now. :) Fixing to get settled down and read before heading off to dream land. ~LATER~

May 02, 2008

Let us not look back in anger or forward in fear, but around in awareness.

— James Thurber

2008-05-01T11:51:00.000-04:00

Well it's the first of the month and I'm fixing to get BUSY!!! I just about got busy on the wrong thing. LOL I back tracked and I'm on the right path now just hope to stay there. :) I want to get just as much done as I can before the invoices from the first of the month hit today. :) Going to be hard to focus again today because it's so pretty outside. :)

Well I haven't gotten much written but it's almost lunch time so I'll go ahead and post and hope to post more after lunch. :)

2008-04-30T11:36:00.000-04:00

Well it's the end of the month so that probably means I will not be blogging tomorrow. :( I may not even get to finish today. Normally I'm slow at the end of the month but not this month. :) I actually just realized it was Wednesday and it's almost 11:30 a.m. I was slow getting started this morning and stayed slow in my task of getting ready for work and forgot to put on one of my medicines.

Now I'm listening to a Podcast about The Problem with People Pleasing ... what makes this interesting is that they are talking about boundaries and if you remember the book I'm reading is "Boundaries with Kids". :) I knew I was working on my attitudes with certain people but I think along with that I'm going to start working on my boundaries with others. :) This might get interesting, but will be very hard for me. All of us have problems with People Pleasing and we do not need to let this control our lives. We need to only be worrying about Pleasing God!!! "If you are a people pleasing person you are a SLAVE!!! "You are overly concerned about you reputation if you are a people pleaser." We desire approval ... duh. Fear God not Man! The inability to say no is a characteristic of a people pleaser. I think I'm going to keep this podcast for a little while so I can keep refreshing on it. It's been a very informative and I have to keep rewinding it so I can re-listen to something that was just said. :)

I'm back from lunch went to the ice cream parlor and had my usual. I shouldn't have done this because I was so hoping to run by Star Bucks tonight and get my favorite there. :( Shame Shame on me ... and I have the nerve to fuss about gaining weight and my clothes not fitting. :( :) I'm listening to Joyce Meyer now "Let the Main Thing Be the Main Thing." hmmm interesting. At the end of that podcast Joyce suggest that everyone should read 1 Corinthians Chapter 13 everyday OUT LOUD. Man I'm listening to some GREAT topics today from Joyce Meyer ... now I'm listening to Temptation and Self-Control. :)

Need to end here today ... will try my best to blog tomorrow and Friday.

2008-04-29T11:13:00.000-04:00

I finally figured out how I'm getting behind on my emails ... not checking them on the weekends. :) LOL Which this past weekend I started out good keeping up with checking them but ended up not checking them on Sunday. I'm thinking since I'm not knitting right now I need to go on special notice with the grps that I am in. :) I'm still reading "Boundaries with Kids" in fact I have 5 chapters left but with jotting down notes it's taking me forever to read.

At lunch my friend got bad news about her sister in-law. :( She (the sister in-law) had gone to the doctor Monday and was told she would have to have a hysterectomy this Thursdays due to a mass the size of a cantaloupe ... well they got a phone call this morning and her blood work came back very elevated and she was told she has cancer. This is just terrible for this family as they just lost their mom 2 yrs ago to cancer. So if anyone is reading my blog please please PRAY for this family.

I think I'm finished blogging for today ... I'll will update on my friends sister in-law when I find out more information.

2008-04-28T16:28:00.000-04:00

I hope that since I've not posted since Thursday that I will remember what all I need to blog about today. :) Guess I'll start with Thursday evening and then go forward all the way to yesterday. :) Well it's late in the day and I am not sure I will finish but if I don't I'll try one day this week. :) Let's see ... Thursday after work I went and got my son and headed home to walk. He wanted to know what I was doing Friday and I told him I guessed I'd be working ... LOL was trying to pull one over on him again. OK got home and I got ready to go walk and once everyone that was walking got to my house we headed out. :) We ran across (well sort-of) a moped that looked like it had been dumped but we went ahead and finished our walk and on the way back the Moped was still there so we called the non-emergency number to see if anyone had reported one stolen. So we waited around for the cop to get there so he would know he was at the right place. Made it back and I started supper which was ham or turkey sandwiches. Then, after my son and his dad got on my nerves I finally gave in and told him that I was off and that we were going to Columbia. Wish I had of had my camera to take his picture. He had the cutest grin once I told him what the plan was. Well my son thought I was working and he wanted to spend the night with his cousin and I was trying to get him to stay home. Gave in to that too and let him go off with him knowing that he would have to be home early the next morning. While is aunt was there picking him up a car pulled into the street in front of my house and just sat there with there break lights on. Now this was scary to me knowing that who ever was in this car knew that my son and just left and I didn't know if they knew someone else was at my house or not but anyways I called Allen and he came over and come to find out it was 2 women just sitting in a car which that had just put in park right before Allen got there. Now I'm just curious as to why these 2 women would just park and leave the car running with gas as high as it is???? Now the funny thing I guess you could say they actually pulled into a drive way and after a few minutes one of the ladies got in the van that was parked in the drive way and the other one went into the house. This totally confused me as to why they just didn't pull in the drive way and cut the car off and finish talking. I think I've decided to call the cops next time so this lady will know that she is making a neighbor very scared. Is it just me or was this not just crazy???

OK got up Saturday morning and got ready to go and sat and read until the boys got there to leave. We went through the drive thru for breakfast and took off. :) Made it to Columbia Mall safe and sound, and I walked my legs off. Left there and stopped by Books-a-Million and I bet I was in there almost an hour ... would have stayed longer if I had of had more time. :) Seems like every time I get to go to a book store my son is past ready to go so I have to cut my time short. :( Guess I need to start out at the book store first. :) Left Columbia got on the interstate and glanced at a sign that I thought said Clinton was 7 miles and I was excited just to realize it wasn't Clinton on that sign. LOL So anyways we booked it home and I dropped the boys off at home and I went home and read until I crashed I think. No I didn't either ... I went to Chick-fil-A and got me and my parents supper and went to their house and we walked after supper ... then I went home and crashed. (I'm telling you I'm getting old ... LOL)

Then is was Saturday. I got up and got sort of ready to go walk. Then I started in on my house work while I waited for my sister to get there so we could go walk. We ended up deciding that we would go to Wal-Mart to walk so I had to change my clothes, put on a tad of make-up and fix my hair. I think we were at Wal-Mart for 2 hours ... I actually tried one on the samples which was a Cesar salad and I liked it so I got the ingredients to make it. :) I also bought me a reclining outdoor chair. So after my sister left I heated up this chicken breast I bought in a pouch with barbecue sauce with a 90 second rice bag I bought and mixed those together and had that for lunch. Then I grabbed my book and headed outside to try out the new chair ... let me tell you I dosed off to sleep and my sister called and I jumped from the phone scaring me ... LOL. Got off the phone with her and I went inside and laid down in my bed and slept 2 hours. Got up and got ready and took off to JcPenny's and Wal-Mart, to see if I could find some light long sleeve shirts to wear while in my car or just to go outside in. I had saw a shirt in Columbia that I would have liked to of had but I didn't like the price ... it was over $80. I ended up getting 2 white shirts at JcPenny's one was regular price and one was .88 cents. :) Then at Wal-Mart found a shirt I liked it was on clearance for $3.00 and got to the register and it was .85 cents. Left there and debated on Star Bucks or Dairy Queen and finally decided I wanted Star Bucks. It was so GOOD!!!! (I had one Friday at the mall in Columbia.) Got home read for about 30 minutes and crashed. That was my Saturday.

Well then I got up Sunday morning very weak ... in fact so weak it hurt to walk across the floor. So I got back into bed and slept until 12. I was starving when I got up so I heated up the rice and chicken I had left from the day before and grabbed my book. :) You'd think I'd be finished with that book by now but I'm not. :( Oh and I went to Star Bucks around 2 to meet Allen and got the Frappuccino® Vanilla Bean Venti which that sizes has 600 calories... well the Grande has 470 and oh yeah there is an 8 oz difference in the cup sizes. Hmmmm if you don't get the whipped cream which I really don't care for the Venti has 490 calories. That sounds lots better. :) The Grande has 350 calories without the whipped cream. Not sure about the other flavors but I know that the Vanilla Bean is my favorite.

Well I got to stop here but that was pretty much my Sunday besides leaving Star Bucks and reclining on the couch and reading until bed time.

2008-04-24T08:56:00.000-04:00

April 24, 2008

A good laugh and a long sleep are the best cures in the doctor's book.
— Irish Proverb

This is the devotion I got today from Purpose Driven Life and I wanted to share it on my blog.

Loving Difficult People

2008/04/24

If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. Romans 12:18 (NIV)

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When asked what he considered the most valuable skill in employees, the financier John D. Rockefeller replied, “The ability to get along with people!”

One of the most important skills we can develop as we walk with Christ is knowing how to love troublemakers. If you learn how to interact with difficult people, then you’ll be able to pour your energy into areas of ministry rather than constantly putting out fires of conflict.

Here are four methods Jesus modeled when he encounter difficult people:

1. Realize you can’t please everybody. Even God can’t do that! Refuse to play games (Matthew 22:18).

2. Learn to say no to unrealistic expectations. Confront them by “telling the truth in love.”

3.NEVER retaliate (Matthew 5:38-39). It only lowers you to their level.

4.Pray for them (Matthew 5:44). It will help both of you. Let God speak to them.

Well today is my Friday. :) I'm keeping it a surprise ... going to pull Matthew's leg this afternoon or tomorrow morning one. :) He asked me on Tuesday if I'd take Friday off, so when I got to work yesterday I asked my boss and he said that would be fine. I'm hoping to get in at least an extra hour of sleep in the morning. :) I think we will have our normal bedtime routine that way he will get up in the morning. Got to really give this some thought as to how I'm going to do it. :)

I plan on walking this evening but haven't made up my mind yet where that will take place. I'm also thinking that I'm going to start doing some sit-ups and crunches in the afternoons as well. My pants are so tight that I can hardly breathe today. :( I keep telling myself I've got to buckle down and so far I haven't but I'm really going to have to do something because I really don't want to go buy work clothes. :( Think I'll start weighing in every week and writing down and that should give me the boost I need ... or at least I hope it will. :)

Well guess I'll stop here and will try to blog sometime this weekend. ;) Maybe try to go get some memory for my computer so it will actually let us do something. My son and I get so mad at that STUPID COMPUTER!!! In fact I think that's why I get behind on my craft emails because I don't check them at home on the weekends.

God is Good, He is Still in Control, and He is worthy to be Honored and Praised!!!

2008-04-23T15:22:00.000-04:00

Guess what???? It's Hump Day!!! I've been on a roll this week ... and still behind at work. :( To my surprise I haven't really stressed over it too much. :) I give all the Thanks to the Lord for all that he is doing and helping me to do in my life. :) I don't think I've ever been as happy as I am in life as I am now. Yes there is stress all around me day in and day out but I'm praying about it leaving it with the Lord and pressing onward. :) Why couldn't I have learned this lesson a long time ago. Meagan is trying to drag me into her drama now and I'm refusing to let her. I think she needs to figure out this time how to get out of her situation instead of relying on someone to fix things for her. Sometimes you just have to have that hard love and one day she will be thankful that she had to solve her own problems. I know I've heard it's always easy for the person on the outside looking in to know what the person needs to do and that person will not listen. Well me and several others have tried to tell her what to do but she just won't listen. I just don't understand but it's in the Lord's hands now.

On a better note .... my brother in-law is getting to go home from the hospital tonight. He's still in pain but his blood has started to thin. We just need to keep him in prayer that he will be healed. :) I know pain is not a good thing and to be in it every day is just not good.

I don't think I've updated lately on keeping on track ... I'm still caught up on my Bible reading and my podcast that I listen to. :) Guess you could say my podcast are caught up I normally take off what I have listened to and add new items once a week. At one point and time I couldn't add anything because I wasn't taking enough off. I want to one of these days to be able to go back and listen to the ones I've left on my I-Pod. :)

Well it's getting close to going home time today ... I've let time slip up on me again. LOL

God is Good, He is still in Control, and He is Worthy to be Honored and Praised!!!

2008-04-22T11:58:00.000-04:00

So far this has been a stressful day and I'm trying very hard not to let this get to me. It started out before leaving home ... I couldn't bring myself to get out of bed, then after we did get on the road I got all the way to the High School, and had to turn around and go back home. I didn't have my badge to get in at work or at least I didn't think I had it but after going back home and not finding it we found it in my purse. I didn't really start stressing until after I let Matthew out and I got behind a lady that wouldn't go the speed limit and I couldn't pass her any where. :( So I was late for work which was my own fault. I should have gotten up on time. :( Oh and once I did get to work of all mornings a boss was sitting in my office chatting with one of my co-workers. (Of all mornings)

After work yesterday I picked up my son and we hurried to the Shepherd's Shoppe to get my mom a gift certificate instead of trying to pick out another book. :) I forgot to go by the CVS on the way home. :( Got home got a load of clothes started and watered the back yard then waited on my sister and her girls so we could go walk. (I actually worked a few pieces on the puzzle I am working on.) We ended up not walking until almost 7 last night so that threw the whole night off, and at 10:30 I was still wide away. I normally can go right to sleep when my head hits the pillows but not last night. :) I think that has a lot to do with the OCD getting off schedule just throws everything off. I forgot all about the clothes I had started so Matthew would have something to wear today, but at least I remembered before I went to bed to put them in the dryer. :) After we walked we went to Chick-fil-A to eat ... one of my nieces had a fit because the other niece was going to ride with me so after my son called to find out where I was because I had told him I was on the way I just put both girls in my car and let her win. I was telling her on the way that yeah she got her way this time but it wouldn't happen again. She was like oh yeah I'll win next time too. (You can't help but laugh but she is only 5 yrs old) ... well by this time my son had give up on me and was mad said he wasn't coming to go without him then called back a few minutes later said his dad was bringing him. Well he wanted a sandwich (which he didn't eat) and went and sat in my car waiting on me to drive him thru the drive thru for ice cream (which I did do, and guess what he might have eaten 1/4 of it) :(

Well got to end here I've been dragging at work all day and you can really tell because I haven't gotten much done and now its 15 minutes until it's time to go home so I better get something done before then. :)

God is Good, He is Still in Control and He is Worthy to be Honored and Praised!!!

2008-04-21T08:45:00.007-04:00

The picture to the right was taken Friday night. My sister came by the house on her way home to get me to show her how to do something with her new I-Pod. Then after she left I found the notes I had written down still on the desk. LOL She had dropped off Travis and the oldest girls 5 and 3 at the lake to fish while she came to walk and go eat. When she got back to pick them up she said he was sitting there holding 2 sleeping girls. :) I think I went to bed right after she called to let me know she had made it home. :)

Saturday I got up and messed around making tea and straightening the house a little bit ... got the dishwasher loaded and hand washed a few that I didn't want in the dishwasher. :) Then I got my flower pots out that I wanted to paint and painted them with the cobalt blue paint and then I left to go to town while that paint dried so that I wouldn't get impatient waiting. Came back got the white paint out and finished up my pots and went back to town. I had forgotten that I wanted to get my son a book this weekend and I needed to run before the store closed to get it. :) Got all my flowers planted that I had bought (if you look closely in the picture below you will see 2 of the flower pots with my flowers in them. :) I guess I need to take a picture of the yard and post before my son messes it up playing basketball. I know the yard it looking better since all the clutter has been moved, but it's only been moved to the patio now. LOL My sister called and they were going to Lee's Barbecue so I met them there and had supper with them. :) Left from there and went to Wal-Mart and then I went home to get my shower and hit the sack ... my sister called has I was getting out of the shower to let me know she was taking Travis to the ER could I keep the girls.

Here is a picture that my sister took yesterday (Sunday) of me and 2 of her girls. :) They spent the night with me on Saturday because my sister had to take her husband (their dad) to the ER. Lydia wouldn't go to sleep for nothing LOL she stay up until 1 am so I told them they would get up with the chickens because they were going to church. :) It was kind of funny when morning came when I was waking them up I was reminding them that I had told them they needed to go to sleep because we'd get up with the chickens. They wanted to know where the chickens were ... LOL So they got up and moving around and I got them in the tub to bathe while I put on my make up. Got finished with that and got them breakfast and we got dressed and made it out the door just in time to get to church early I guess you could say or right on time. :) After church we meet a friend of mine at La-Ha for lunch then headed to my house to try to take a nap .... I got about a 30 minute nap in couldn't get both girls to lay down at the same time. I had figured since they had stayed up until 1 am and I got them up at 7 that it wouldn't be a problem getting them to take a nap. I did put on a movie that we watched while laying down. :) My mom called late in the evening and asked if I had decided to treat her like Meagan was treating her. I had already told her that I hadn't gotten much sleep and that I had the girls. I had planned on going over there this weekend I painted her a flower pot and planted a flower for her but I didn't make it.

Well it's a typical Monday. :) I actually stayed in bed about 30 minutes longer this morning ... I should have known better. Mike was suppose to take our son to school but he called and said he was running late. So I picked up my pace a little bit so I could leave in time to get him dropped off at school and to work on time ... I made it early. :) I even remembered my moms flower .... it's out in my car and yes I left my windows down so it wouldn't get to hot and die. I need to take a picture of it ... if I don't forget I'll do that once I get to my mom's this afternoon. ;) Well I've got to stop here will try to blog again tomorrow. :-)

2008-04-18T14:56:00.000-04:00

Alright it's Friday!!! How did you like my post yesterday??? I thought I was going to have time to blog but didn't. LOL Going to try to get some things blogged about today.

My mom is doing great and I've really been surprised at how she has done. So has only complained about 2 things ... 1. how bad it hurts getting out of the bed and I understand that completely. 2. Her house needs to be cleaned (it's not dirty) ... I told her this morning maybe she could dust with the swifter duster. I don't think she liked that idea too much. Now I know your thinking that I should go out there and clean her house for her so let me clarify why I will not do this ... I won't do it to her liking, she would find something to complain about. That's just how she is, and she will tell you real quick that my house needs to be cleaned.

Well I am home now ... been having trouble with my stomach the last couple of days cramping ... and now I have the runs. Maybe I will get some blogging in in between running to the bathroom and laying down. :) I really wanted to stay at work but the bathroom just wasn't close enough to my desk. :(

Now lets see ... I finished the book "Battlefield of the Mind" written by Joyce Meyer and I ended up with I think 24 note cards filled out front and back. :) I really recommend this book to everyone (I think the whole world needs to read it), and I even shared about it with my counselor last night. I'm planning on going and getting my son the Teen Battlefield of the Mind but he says he's not going to read it ... our counselor thinks it would be great if he would read it. Guess I will have to figure out a way to make him read it. I've already suggested he could read it while I'm reading in the evenings ... but he said NO!!! I'm reading "Boundaries with Kids" now and instead of note cards I picked my up some steno books and I'm using it to take notes. :) So far its a lot easier with the steno book taking notes instead of the note cards but I so love note cards. :) Just fixing to start chapter 3 ... it takes me so long to read a book when I want to jot down notes from it. :) I've got a couple of other books lined up to read after this one but not going to say which it will be because I keep changing up what I do read next. (I think I need to stay away from the book store and the book section at the store) LOL I actually got the book "Boundaries" that I was going to read but then I discovered that I had this one "Boundaries with Kids" so I started it first. I wonder if my knitting needles are missing me???

My counseling session went pretty good last night, my son would go in and talk with her last night. I told her that he seemed to be doing great the past few weeks. (Hope I don't regret saying that) I know in one of my sessions we had talked about him having OCD, and she told me last night that I have OCD too. I pulled it up at work to see what all it said about it. It was pretty interesting to me, after reading the material I pulled up I guess because I have OCD that I passed it on to my son. :( Now that I know I can understand somethings that I couldn't really understand before. I know that my doctor has talked to me about my serotonin levels but I don't guess I ever really understood it until my counselor explained it to me last night. She was comparing to someone who has high blood pressure or high cholesterol and they have to take medication to help them in that area and that I should take medication that helps me with my serotonin levels since I've already been told that I have trouble with that. I just hate taking medication!!!! :(

I just woke up :( I was just a blogging away and had to run to the bathroom and was cramping so bad I just laid across my bed and I fell asleep. :) Not sure how I'm feeling right this minute, but I'm hoping I feel up to walking in a little while, not sure about eating out but I could eat my shoe right about now. :) Maybe I can eat and just come straight home that way if I get sick I'll be at home instead of having to worry how I'm going to make it home. The ride from Abbeville this morning almost got me. My stomach hasn't been this bad in a very long time, or lets just say when I do have trouble with it I'm normally already at home. :)

Well I just went and got my son and he's already making plans for his weekend. He's wanting to go to his cousins tonight. :( Guess I shouldn't frown I should just enjoy the time since it doesn't happen very often. :) I actually plan on reading this evening and then getting up tomorrow cleaning house then back to my book. I'd like to go to Anderson and use my coupon at Books-a-Million but I think I can use it online too. (Will have to look it expires 4/29)

Well I guess I'm finished blogging for today. :-)

God is Good, He is Still in Control and He's worthy to be Honored and Praised!!!

2008-04-17T15:55:00.000-04:00

Oh boy it's Thursday!!!

2008-04-16T16:22:00.000-04:00

Well it's hump day already :) I didn't get a chance Monday night or yesterday to blog, it the season for Headaches now. :( It's just so pretty outside and its not too hot for me to be outside either. I did put on my jacket yesterday afternoon and grabbed my book and sat outside reading and jotting down notes from it until it got too chilly for me. Once Matthew got off the bus yesterday I let him go in and see my mom then we took off so he wouldn't bother her so she could rest. So far I think she is doing great and the only problem she is having is getting up and down when she lays down. I told her she should be able to run the marathon by Friday. LOL I had forgotten that I had something to her about eating at the ice cream parlor on Friday, but I told her we would have to wait until next week. She sounded fine with that. I had already told 2 people that I could walk on Friday. I'm thinking that we should hit the mall walk a few rounds then head to La-Ha to grab some supper. :) I know tonight my son and I are having left overs and then tomorrow night if I eat it will be from a drive through on the way home.

Tonight is church night :) and as of right this minute I'm planning on going. I know I've got to run to the drug store on the way to get some medicine for the sinus headaches I'm getting. It shouldn't be a problem because I've already told my son that we were eating left overs tonight and I've got my Bible ready to grab too. I think I popped right out of the bed this morning so I had an extra few minutes to get things ready for my afternoon.:) I actually got to work at 7:30 this morning and got lots done :) ... I'm dragging now though. :)

Well I have to stop here for today ... will try to blog again tomorrow. I've got lots of thoughts that I want to blog about. :)

2008-04-14T13:10:00.000-04:00

I will not have time to blog today will try tonight or sometime tomorrow :)

My mom is having surgery tomorrow morning and we have to be there at 6:30 in the morning. So therefore I will not be at work tomorrow so I have to get 2 days of work done in one day. FUN FUN

2008-04-10T10:14:00.000-04:00

Well, I'm back at work today Thursday :) ... I went in to check my home email and had over 500 emails but now I'm down to 499. :( I've got to get busy here at work so it is going to be a little while before I can blog today if I even get a chance to blog today. I know I left a note card at home today that I wanted to write about so if I remember I'll try to insert it after I get home today ... that will depend on how I'm feeling too.
Well now it's Saturday early morning (6:35) and I just woke up. :) Guess you noticed I didn't finish blogging on Thursday and I didn't have time Friday. :) So I'm going to try to back track back to Thursday (that is what I can remember). :) Now Thursday was my Birthday and I think it was one of my BEST!!! I went to lunch at the Ice Cream Parlor with two of my best buddies, got back from lunch and I had flowers (now this was very confusing because I couldn't figure out who would have sent me flowers and I didn't guess correctly either) but they were from my walking buddy who I had just had lunch with and he just sat there at lunch and didn't say a word. [Now, I think I would have been hinting around :)] Let me tell you I was just tickled pink over these flowers ... they were so PRETTY!!! Below is a picture (took with my cell phone) along with my messy desk. :)

After work I was suppose to walk but my parents wanted to go eat so we went to I-Hop then after telling my parents bye we went and walked. And I think that was pretty much my day. :) Oh yeah my son surprised me when we went to Anderson on Saturday last weekend he bought something for me for my Birthday with his own money and I never even knew he bought anything ... guess he got me back for pulling things on him for his birthday. :-)
Now Friday was a pretty interesting day ... got up and got ready and even left on time to take my son to school and me to work on time. We were almost to school when I was reminding him to take his medicine ... he grabbed the cup of tea and it fell out of his hand :( ... so we went to my moms and she was going to take him to school for me after he got a shower and she got his clothes washed and dried but he was so upset ... he had put on a pair of my dads boxers and was having to hold them up and it was just so FUNNY. So we ended up leaving to come home and I just couldn't help but to keep laughing at him. :) I called my boss on the way home and told him I needed to take the day off so I could get my car cleaned up. Now my son wasn't too happy about this because I took him to school after he got his 2ND shower for the morning. So I got him dropped off and I remembered I hadn't gotten my tax notice for my car so I went by the court house to take care of that and to turn in my mileage and get my total amount due ... now they were making me mad because they kept telling me you have to go to the highway department and I kept telling them I already had my information updated but I went on to the highway department so I could get my sticker. :) So that is taken care of and I headed home to clean the car (yippee) when I remember I had a piece of mail that needed to be mailed so I'm headed to the Post Office and I got side tracked with my thinking doing that. I drove past Office Max on the way to the Post Office and wondered it they had a wireless telephone jack because I'm getting charged $5 a month for not having one of my satellite boxes hooked in to a phone line and that is $60 a year. :( So I went and got a wireless jack which will soon pay for itself. :) Then I finally got home and got out my little green machine and I had already said I was just cleaning one side of the car (yeah yeah I know should have done the whole car) but I did vacuum the whole car and wiped out the whole car with some vinegar water (my hands smelled like it forever but that was soon forgotten). Finished that and cleaned up my mess sort of the green machine is sitting in the house in the middle of the floor, but the mop bucket and the vacuum cleaner are put up. :) Any ways my mom had called and wanted to know if I wanted to go to town around 1 o'clock and I said sure. She was wanting to get some button up shirts which I don't think she got any. LOL We did get some GREAT buys, I had gotten me some capri's at Goody's the weekend of Easter and I really liked them so we both got some of those and they had shorts out and I think they felt better than the capri's so we each got 3 pairs of those. Then we picked out bunches of shirts .... I'm hoping it's not cold in the morning so I can wear one of them to church. Then once we were finished at Goody's I wanted to stop at Rack Room to see what kind of shoes they had on sale because I needed some that I could wear with blue. (Ended up with a very comfortable pair of blue sandals ... now I need to have my feet done but I think I will do them myself) Oh I didn't forget about my son ... I got him a pair of flip flops but I don't think he really cares for them. :( After he got to my moms we left and went to the Mall to meet my sister and her family but we never saw them ... but the Mall was packed. We stopped first thing and got some ice cream :) then walked around the whole mall and left and went to Old Navy and he didn't see anything at the Mall or Old Navy but I got me two pairs of flip flops ... you can't beat two pr for $5. So needless to say I had a very busy day and was glad that I had taken the whole day off because I think my mom had a really good time too. We finished up our day at LaHa for supper then headed home where I took some medicine and laid down with a very bad headache. I woke up shortly after 10 and ended up staying up to almost 1 I think.
Well it is a little after 8 now and I'm thinking it's nap time already :) ... get hopefully at least one hour of sleep before I start my day.
Oh on Thursday I did have my index card that I wanted to share on my blog and just didn't realize it. Guess I am getting old ... LOL So I will just insert it here now ... it's something that Joyce Meyer had written.
Everyday Life Principles:
Blessings and curses are set before us. We need to choose life and continually make good, godly decisions.
We do not live "by bread alone". In other words, real life is not our possessions, positions, or worldly prestige, but knowing God, fellowship with Him, and trusting Him.
We do not need to strive to be blessed. When we obey God, blessings come as long as we are seeking Him for Who He Is and not what He can do for us.

2008-04-09T17:00:00.000-04:00

Well I'm at home today sick, got up in a mess with lots of pain so I took a pain pill and went back to bed. My mom called at 7:30 and I was sound asleep (I think that's the best sleep I'd had in two days). Now it's 4:15 in the afternoon, I'm still in pain but decided I wanted to blog so here I am. I had thought of several things last night I wanted to blog about today so I'm going to try my best to remember what all it was. (Guess I need to email myself with my thoughts when I have them while I'm not at the computer ... I think old age is setting in)
I know I've shared in a previous blog that the day I had court a friend had sent me a text with some scriptures and that I had looked them up and picked one out. Well the verse I picked out was Deuteronomy 31:6 for those who don't remember which one it was. :) The others he shared were Psalm 91:4 and 1 Thessalonians 5:23-24 if anyone is interested in knowing which scriptures he sent to me. Now I've been doing lots of reading in my Bible and for the past week and 1/2 been reading some Joyce Meyer books (which I have blogged about). Now when I read one of her books I will take note cards and jot down scriptures and notes that I think I may want to read back over. :) (I'm always writing something on a note card :)) Well it hit me all of a sudden last night while I was reading to look back over my note cards from "The Battle Belongs to the Lord" (I've loaned this book to a friend at work to take on a trip with her ... she left this morning going to Florida) wasn't sure why I need to look back over my note cards I was trying to read the "Battlefield of the Mind". So I stopped and got my index cards out and was looking over my notes and the scriptures that I had written down. Two things really just stood out to me that I had written down (on my note card #3) 1.) Numbers 21:8 I had written beside this scripture "Begin to Worship God because He is Good, and His goodness will be released in your life. Remember, the battle belongs to the Lord". 2.) Deuteronomy 31:6-8 ... I'm guessing these were the things I was suppose to see while I was trying to read last night I had just started reading a chapter called "Little by Little" which was talking about Condemnation and about not getting Discouraged. After I had looked through my note cards I started the chapter on "Be Positive" [which was kind of funny because my walking partner had called to tell me we couldn't walk and I told him that was fine because I probably didn't need to walk (now I had already gotten ready to walk was going to make myself walk)]. After I hung up the phone I started back reading and I just died laughing .... It was talking about All Things Work for Good see Romans 8:28. Then I read "In Romans 12:16 the Apostle Paul tells us to readily adjust ourselves to people and things. The idea is that we must learn to become the kind of person who plans things but who doesn't fall apart if that plan doesn't work out." I guess if you don't get what I just wrote about then you just had to be there or be me. LOL
Well I'm going to go get my shower and see how I am feeling ... I really want to go to church tonight but not sure if I will get there or not. I got my shower and now I'm back at my desk. I'm debating church ... I really want to go and I'm leaning that way ... maybe if I go it will make me feel some what better. That is if my son doesn't drive me crazy before it's time to leave for church. We are fussing about food he put in the trash can to make the house smell and I'm still mad at him about the toilet paper I bought for his bathroom on Monday evening that is still sitting in the floor except for now instead of the middle of the kitchen floor it's sitting at his bathroom door. Enough of that ... maybe I'll just add some more scriptures for him to write down for me. His report card came today but it's at my moms so I won't get to see it until tomorrow. He hasn't really said anything about his grades so I'm not sure what is in store for me when I open it.
Well I'm going to get up from here it's right at 6 and seeing how I didn't work today I don't have any makeup on and I need to fix my hair too.

God is Good, He is still in Control and He is Worthy to be Honored and Praised!!!

2008-04-08T16:49:00.000-04:00

Before I start I want to complaining about my new shoes :( Every time that I haven't gotten out of my seat today I have stumbled over my feet!!! I got these shoes the weekend of Easter and I really like them but I just can't seem to walk in them!!!! I've worn them a couple of times thinking they just need to be broke in, but I'm not so sure that is going to happen. :( I'm not giving up or at least I don't think I am. Also, I didn't realize I wrote a book yesterday ... it doesn't look like much here where I'm writing but once it post to the blog it looks very long. Hope it was a boring read for anyone.

I think I did pretty good yesterday afternoon, I made me a to-do list before leaving work. The list was for me and my son but the only thing on the list he did was go grocery shopping. :) Now he did bring the trash can around front and take the trash out which wasn't on the list. LOL So I picked him up we ran home let the dog out and I changed my clothes and grabbed the list for the grocery store. While we were getting groceries my son saw his dad buying Meagan and Kyle groceries. This really upset him and he didn't want them to see us and that went pretty good until we were leaving his dad saw us in the parking lot. Now his dad was suppose to be in NC this week and he wasn't he was out spending time with Meagan and Kyle and he wouldn't answer his cell phone either when we called. My son was wanting to see if his dad would answer the phone and to see what he was going to tell us he was doing. Well he had to tell us something because he was busted being in Greenwood instead of NC. Well we got home got the groceries in and I started in on the dishes. He put up some of the groceries and I put the rest up after I finished washing up what wouldn't fit in the dishwasher. I got the dryer turned on to fluff the clothes that I had left in there on Sunday night and when I heard it cut off I went and folded the clothes and left the towels, rags, and socks, to fold later ... maybe tonight. :) So the dusting and the vacuuming didn't get done but I'm going to get my son to dust tonight while I am out walking. (ha-ha on him)

Well today is my nephew's birthday and I sent my brother a text to get him to tell CJ Happy Birthday from me ... he wrote me back saying "ok tell his grandma to tell him also". I'm not going there with my mom she was just crying last week because it was Daniels Birthday (that's one of my brothers sons from a previous marriage). I had to listen to everything that day about how she does and does for us and we do her like we do her. I wonder sometimes why I put myself through the conservations I have to listen to with my mom. Guess we just have to grin and bare it sometimes. :) To me it doesn't do her any good telling me all these things because it doesn't go any further than that, and it just brings me down, but how do you go about not having to listen to those conservations? Maybe one day I'll have the answer but until then I'll get keep praying. I know I've been trying to work on my attitude with someone but he only notices when I get in a rage with him and likes to point it out to me. I even explained to him a while back look I'm trying very hard not to have an attitude with you so you need to stop pushing my buttons to make me upset with you.

Oh we went for out for lunch today for mine and Stacy's Birthday lunch. :) It was pretty good, I just mainly sat there and listened to everyone else. Marsha got there just as we were leaving. :( She had called and told me what to order her but she didn't make it on time to eat with us so I put hers in a to go box. :( Stacy is off the rest of the week going to Florida with a school field trip. I took her the book I just finished reading so she could read it on the way down and back. I started "Battlefield of the Mind" last night and I think I'm already on my second note card. I was telling Stacy that I've been taking notes reading these books so I can go back and re-read over them. Once I finish reading everything that I'm wanting to read right now I'm going to go back and re-read the "The Battle Belongs to the Lord". I think I just need to get me a notebook to take notes on. :) Use the index cards for scriptures and the notebook for notes. I really had a hard time deciding which book I wanted to read next but I did narrow it down to the two I mentioned yesterday and even once I sat down last night I had gotten both of the books out until I just picked up the Joyce Meyer book and started reading it and taking notes. :) The book belongs to my parents and I'm assuming they have forgotten loaning it to me several years ago. It had ended up on my bookcase and I had forgotten about it. I think this is one of the books that Joyce Meyer republished too, the one I saw at Wal-Mart last night has a different cover and copyright date. She has several books that she has republished but I'm not sure if the books changed or she added to them or what.

2008-04-07T11:54:00.000-04:00

I'm going to try to blog today. :) It's a dreary day outside so far today, but lots to do here at work and at home. I went to Anderson Saturday with my son and I think that threw me way off, but we had a great time so it was worth it. I don't like doing chores on Sunday and I didn't do any Friday or Saturday. :( I told my son this morning that we would be cleaning house tonight and going to the grocery store. :( I'm wishing I had of grabbed the list this morning so that we could go to the store on the way home, but I guess I'll change and we can let the dog out before we go. Hope that doesn't take long because the house is upside down and I don't think we have any bowls or silverware that is clean so that means I've got to start the dishwasher and hand wash dishes tonight. I think Monday should be our cleaning night since the trash pick up is on Tuesdays. I had thought about just hauling my trash off but I've decided against that and it didn't take me very long either. LOL

Lets see now ... My weekend was pretty busy. I left work early on Friday to see the skin doctor. Of course that meant I was going to have to spend more money on medicine. :( I think this was the most expensive trip to the drug store yet. Then we went out to eat at I-Hop and ended up not going to walk. :( We were suppose to walk then go to eat, but my mom said something about trying to go eat so that's what we did. We were going to go waddle after eating but a storm was coming so we skipped out on that. My sister and her 3 girls came over I'd say around 8pm Friday and I have no idea where time went it was after 12 when they left I think. The kids had so much fun. :) That is with the exception of 2 of them getting injured, and the other one is way to young to have gotten hurt. I couldn't believe that she slept through everything that was going on, but she was just peacefully sleeping. Of course I've already said we went to Anderson on Saturday and had lots of fun. My son didn't complain about having to go in Hobby Lobby. :) Not sure how long we were in there, but I don't think we covered the whole store. We left there and headed to Chick-fil-A for a late lunch, then it was off to Pet-Smart, Michael's, Anderson Mall, and Books a Million, and then we called it a day and headed home. Got back in to Greenwood and my sons dad called to inform me that he had seen Tommy out bowling with a different woman than the one he moved in. Like I really wanted to know that I'm trying to move forward not backwards. :) Of course when I came by the bowling alley I had to look to see if his truck was still there and it was and it was tempting to stop but I just kept going the little girls room was calling me. LOL Sunday was church and they started Sunday school classes yesterday so I got up and went to Sunday school and church. To me the preaching was sort of a continuation from Wednesday night, or at least that is what I got out of it. Left church went home changed and headed to my moms for lunch so I could get back home for my Sunday nap. :) Got up and had time to do a little cleaning got one load of clothes started and then I swept the kitchen and hallway (yuck) and mopped. Then it was time to get ready to go eat which I had been looking forward to since Saturday. I already knew I was going to La-Ha for supper. :), got there and I had forgotten my cell phone (I have no idea how I could have done that) but I decided to go ahead and go inside I was thirsty. Well the person I was meeting didn't realize I was already inside and I didn't realize he was outside waiting on us, so I finally was sending Matthew outside to see if he seen him when he walked in looking to see if we were inside. It was funny and not funny all at the same time, but I think I will make sure I have my phone next time I leave home. My son got injured while we were out to eat he wanted to play the quite game so I was tickling and pinching him, and he came down on his cup and straw and it the straw cut the outer edge of his eye and he had a knot coming up as well. I had him put some ice on it while we were there and this morning when he first got up you could really tell but when I looked at it on the way taking him to school this morning you couldn't really tell. :) Oh yeah I won the quite game. LOL I'm in lots better of a mood today than I was yesterday. I had a nagging headache on Saturday that went full blown after we got home and that didn't help with my sleep at all. I don't think it would have gone full blown if I had of eaten something that evening. I think I only ate once on Saturday and that was lunch.

Going to back track just a little here ... there is a part of the service during worship at church that you get out of your seat and go greet others and shake hands and or hug and introduce yourself to visitors or members whom you may not know yet (which this makes me very nervous for some unknown reason) ... well as I've already blogged a couple of times about ... Tommy's dad came up to me during this time asking what my name was and I was like if you don't know I don't know LOL (nothing mean about it) but then he wanted a hug so I hugged him and he was telling me that Tommy really needed to come and try this church out and that was the end of that or so I thought. After service I had saw my sister come in during worship so I wanted to go speak to them before I left and Herman grabbed me again introducing me as his girl to people in the church. Now at first this was very upsetting to me. Now that time has passed I've decided with the help of lots of prayer over the past few months that I'm not going to let him get me down. If he wants to come speak to me call me his girl let him it's not his fault what his son did to me and I need to get past that. I should be excited that they are in church and that they are being friendly to me and I will show them the same respect. I will also pray that Tommy will come back to the Lord and get himself in church where he belongs. I know that Tommy knows right from wrong and not just by our conservations when we were together. We often talked about the Lord and what he was doing in our lives and how we were brought together. Now I don't know what happened and I probably never will know what happened between us but I know that Satan played a very big role in it. I even questioned myself for almost 2 months as to if I were doing the right thing going through with our divorce, but like Jason spoke on Wednesday night that sometimes other people make choices that affect us and we don't have a choice. Which was something he had already spoken to me about the week before my divorce.

I'm back from lunch and even knowing that my clothes are getting tooooooo tight I came back with ice cream. Let me tell you I've got to get off this ice cream kick I'm on right now ... I've lost my girl-ly figure. LOL I guess I'll have to work on it later on when I get off this kick or step up the pace with my walking I've been doing. (Hint Hint)

I finished my book "THE BATTLE Belongs to the LORD" ... Overcoming Life's Struggles Through Worship written by Joyce Meyer. I highly recommend this book to everyone. This book really opened my eyes to somethings that have been going on in my life, and how to look at things differently. I had bought this book and another one by Joyce Meyer a week ago and had planned on starting the other one once I finished this one but I've since changed my mind and I'm going to start the "Battlefield of the Mind". I've had this book for several years and just haven't read it, guess it just wasn't the right time for me to read it until now. It's one of the older copies but I'm sure that will be just fine. I got me the book "Boundaries" this weekend but I'm not sure when I will get started with it. Maybe I can read both of these together which might get a little confusing so maybe I should just read one at a time. LOL I have read 2 to 3 different books at one time but it can get confusing as to what you read from which book. :)

Oh by the way I'm still on track reading my Bible and keeping up with my Podcast. (Clap Clap Clap for me) :-) Now I'm behind on my hobby emails :( as of right this minute I have 311 emails to read. Guess you know what that means .... I'm behind and my needles are still taking a break. I'm planning on ordering me some yarn so I guess when I get a chance to do that the needles will have to come off there break and get busy. Think they could get busy with me helping??? I'd really like to visit the shop but they are only open during the week and closed the weekends when I could take a road trip. I understand they need their weekends just like I need my weekends too. :) Maybe one day this summer I can take a Friday and Monday off and go visit with my brother for the weekend and figure out where along the way I get off of 40 to get to the shop. :) Hmmm that sounds like a great plan, but one that will have to be once Matthew is out of school.

Well I'm going to stop here for today will blog again one day this week maybe tomorrow ... guess we will have to see how my day starts and goes. :-P

God is still in Control, and He is Worthy to be Honored and Praised!!!!

2008-04-03T16:41:00.002-04:00

I'm still moving right along. :) So thankful I didn't skip out on church last night because I thought it was going to rain. Jason talked on being in the wilderness, not a very easy topic for me. He talked about some of us being where we are not by choices we've made but because of choices other people made that effect us. I must tell you I think all his sermoms and Bible studies are meant just for me, but I know that isn't so. He touched several people last night. :) I had gone to tell one of my friends bye and she was like being in the wilderness is hard isn't it? I just shook my head and told her she was going to make me cry that I'd talk to her later. Now I'm listening to Joyce Meyer talking about "A Fresh Start at How You See Yourself". (Ran out of town will finish as soon as I get a chance)
I'm back it's another day. :) I left what was said above on purpose that's in ( ). I read that and just LOL, good thing no one was in the office with me. They would have thought I'd lost my mind. :) I had meant to say that I had ran out of time not town. The interesting thing about that was just last night I was thinking it would be so nice to just move far far away from here. Now I know I can't do anything like it but sometimes it just seems like that is the answers just run run run and don't look back. I know that wouldn't solve anything you have to face your problems head on and deal with them. (I've run out of time again. LOL)

2008-04-02T11:53:00.000-04:00

I didn't get a chance to blog yesterday, but I had already figured I wouldn't. Can't believe I've found a few minutes now to write. :) (I really don't have time LOL but I'm making time) To say it's only Wednesday it seems like too much as already happened. :( One of the girls out back said she was going to come up with a name for my soap opera. LOL

Lets see where to start ... guess I can give an update on things happening with me. :) My needles are still on the back burner but that is fine. I'm still reading my Bible, but I've also reading the Joyce Meyer book I got this weekend. I thought I'd be finished by now but I keep going back rereading some of the information plus I'm writing down the scriptures so I can go back later and look up in my own Bible. I'm just leaning on the Lord to lead me down the road I need to be on. It's been pretty awesome here lately the things I've come up against that he was right there I know he was because I never lost my cool. I'm just so Thankful to have a Loving Father that cares so deeply for me, and I'm still learning to take that step of faith (which is very hard for me). Not doing very well with the exercise part right now down to once a week walking ... not sure what happened. LOL I told my mom I was going to have to lose some weight or buy some new bigger clothes. She was fussing about me wanting to lose weight. (I know what's new?) I have a goal set and will not go below that.

I think my mom is feeling a little better (mind wise) knowing more about what is wrong with her. She went to the doctor yesterday and they told her that her gallbladder wasn't functioning like it should ... they are doing surgery to remove it April 15. She was scared of what she was going to find out not about the surgery but just about what they were going to tell her. I had tried to tell her that it might be that it wasn't functioning but she wouldn't listen to me. I sent a text to my brother to let him know she was having surgery and he wanted to know why so I sent another message telling him why and haven't heard back from him.

Now the drama that is going on around me. I got a text message sometime Monday night from my sons dad saying he was going to eat w/my daughter and her boyfriend. Well I didn't respond to him, I need sometime to talk to the Lord and to think about this. At first I was like has he lost his mind???? What does she have up her sleeve??? Something just doesn't add up here, I'm still concerned but I'm leaving it in the Lords hands now. I've talked to a few close friends about it and they seemed concerned about it in the same way that I was. He sent another text asking me if I had gotten the first text and all I said back to him was "yeah" and I left it at that and didn't hear back from him. I know they went to Fatz's to eat because she sent me a text telling me that they were eating at Fatz but she didn't say with who, and I didn't ask any questions. Now this is going to be interesting when my mom finds out and I really dread it ... I came very close this morning to telling her, but I figured it just wasn't the right time.

I backed tracked after I got back from lunch to add a piece on my mom. I went and told my boss that I was leaving early on Friday to go to the doctor, and that I would need to be off on April the 15th because my mom was having surgery that day.

Now my day I thought was starting out GREAT!! I got up before 6 ... couldn't believe that. Then at exactly 6:26 a.m. my daughter sent a message saying Good Morning then she started in on being hungry, then she was starving ... I sent a text back saying I offered to get YOU some groceries (I was only told they needed sugar) so she wrote back saying they didn't want me to waste my money on them. (Do you really think I would have offered if I didn't want to do it?) So then I started on her about getting a job. I told her he needed to find a job to support them and that she needs to find a job as well. To which she replied 1. we both trying, 2. we applied, 3. no man wants to support a woman with no job. So then I sent a text saying he could get a construction job they come a dime and dozen to which she replied "that's not what he wants to do". So I sent her back a message that said he could do that until he finds something that he likes and is better ... to which she replied "he said you ain't his mama so leave him alone..." and I just dropped it and I haven't heard anything else from her. So why help someone who isn't trying to help themselves? I think they are just going to have to hit rock bottom. I plan on ignoring all text that she sends telling me it's not fair that I'm going out to eat. Also, if they come to eat out with me I will not pay for his food only my children. :) I shouldn't feel that way I know but I don't think I am being respected by him at all. I am just going to continue to pray for them to see that things are not always handed to you, and that they are not going to find a job working together. I've already told them they don't need to be together if they can't trust each other.

God is Good, He is still in Control, and He is Worthy to be Honored and Praised!!!

2008-03-31T16:20:00.000-04:00

Well, I made it to Monday. :) I have now been officially single for a whole week, but it seems longer than that to me. I'm very grateful not to have any ties to him anymore. :) I did come to the conclusion this weekend that being single can be very lonely when you are in a group of happy married couples. Which is fine I will just have to learn to cope in this area. This was actually the first time I have been uncomfortable since October, and I think it had to do with the game they were playing and the answers that were being given out.

The weekend was pretty good I guess you could say. :) I actually got a nap on Saturday and Sunday, I made it to the grocery store, got one load of clothes washed, put a roast on for Sunday, and made it to church and life group. :-) Oh and I got a really great book this weekend and got started reading it (my knitting is on the back burner for the moment) "The BATTLE Belongs to the LORD" I haven't really wanted to put it down at all, in fact I stayed up past my bed time last night reading. :) So in between going here and there and chores I'm almost 1/2 done with the book.

Friday evening we went to eat, and then went home and Matthew had his dad pick him up and they went to Walmart or fishing supplies. His dad bought Meagan a fishing rod and some plugs. My son went fishing Saturday morning, then when he got back we went and got his hair cut. :) He looks so much better now. :) Meagan came by after she got up that afternoon and got her fishing rod and was so excited. She wrote my sons dad a Thank you note and wanted me to take it to him. (So I did) Then she sent me a text wanting his cell phone number and I sent it to her. Well she started sending him text messages, and once Matthew found this out he was very upset. I don't mean just a little but A LOT!!! He doesn't like it at all because he thinks something bad is going to happen. I'm staying out of it!!!

Now I have a note on my desk with 1pm Tuesday written on it and I don't have a clue what in the world it means. I know it was something I wrote down on Friday but I can't remember why I wrote it down. :( I have nothing on my calendar for Tuesday, the only thing in fact is my doctors appointment for Friday. Oh know I just figured it out ... scanning thru my brain. LOL That the day my mom goes back to the doctor to find out about what they are going to do about her Gall-Bladder. The only thing she knows for sure now is that it's abnormal. I told her I'd go with her but my dad is going so I'm going to save my time in case they decide to do surgery I can be there then.

Well this is all I am going to be able to write today. :( I don't think I will have time tomorrow either, but maybe I can work in a little something.

God is Good, He is still in Control, and He's worthy to be Honored and Praised!!!

2008-03-28T10:03:00.000-04:00

Thought I'd blog today since I haven't since Tuesday. :) I've just been a busy bee and had lots going on. Wednesday I wasn't feeling very good so I just pushed myself til the day was over. Thursday was just non-stop, only worked 1/2 a day so that was tense trying to get everything finished before I left. I had an eye doctors appointment, and I got back to Greenwood in time to stop by the social security office. That didn't work out because I hadn't gotten my drivers licenses change. So I asked my eye doctor if he would not dilate my eyes because I needed to go to the Highway Department. Well because I've been having problems he said the best thing he could ever do would be to dilate my eyes. :( Well I have vitreous floaters in my right eye and he didn't seem concerned he said that he thought my problem was a type of migraine. (Not sure if I really understood that or not because I haven't had any headaches.) So he said I wouldn't need to come back for two year. :) So I left there and headed to the DMV to have my drivers licenses changed so that I could get back to the social security office before they closed at 4. I left there and went and got Meagan to drive me around ... she had sent me a text while I wasn't able to see telling me she had something important to tell me. I had the bank left to have my name changed so she drove me to the bank (had no problems there getting new checks and new check card), Alltel, and the Skate-a-way USA (the last two places were totally awkward for me).

Well when I picked up Meagan she was able to go into more detail with me about what was going on. Oh boy was I just like oh my what am I going to do. How am I going to handle this? I wanted to make sure that I handled this correctly which I knew would not be something easy at all. I just prayed that the Lord would give me the wisdom and the right words to say to the people that I would have to talk with. So my first stop was Alltel and they weren't much help to me at all. Thank goodness I have a friend that knew how to do this that gave me the information that I needed to block numbers from my sons cell phone. Well I went online to Alltel this morning and in one spot it tells you that can't be done but I kept looking and guess what I found. "How do I block unwanted text messages coming from phone numbers?" Now that is exactly what I asked them in the office and was told all text would have to be blocked ... well they were W R O N G ! ! ! Go figure. So that wasn't too bad, so now for the next few weeks or longer since I have my sons phone it will be monitored and I will block all numbers that send them text that he shouldn't be getting. :) Next was the first hard part of my evening. Now keep in mind my son doesn't know that I have his phone he thinks he has misplaced it. He has no clue what I've seen on his phone either. I counted the number of calls from him last night where he had called and he called my cell phone over 30 times. Got Meagan to drive me to the skating rink and I went inside to see if the person I needed to talk to was working and she wasn't they told me she would be in at 6. So I went nervously back to the car to wait and wait and wait, and she wasn't there at 6. I walked back inside and asked if she was still coming or if she wasn't going to make it and she was off even though she was scheduled to work. I told the guy that I really need to talk with her could he tell me how to get in touch with her. He said that he would call and tell her someone was there that was wanting to talk to her. So I got on the phone and told her that I needed to talk to her about our children (yes I said children not teens not adults but children) and I really wanted to do it in person could we meet some where. She was like just stay there I will be right there. Now I'm a nervous WRECK by now ... trying to figure out how to talk to this parent and what I was going to say how to start it, but let me tell the Lord was right there with me. They got there and had brought their children which they sent the younger one inside and I told the mom I would like to talk to just her without the child but she insisted that her daughter was going to listen to everything said. This was scary having to talk to the parents with the daughter there too. (Keep in mind I haven't talked with my son about this yet and wasn't sure how I was going to handle it) I simple just told them that I thought some of the text between the two kids was WAY out of line and I thought they should be aware of the text that my son received from their daughter. I told them I knew he had sent her some as well so it just wasn't her, and I would make sure that my son was punished as well and that he understood exactly why he was being punished. So we finished up talking, and I finally got home and still didn't have a clue how or what to say to my son. I decided that I thought it would be best if we went some where to talk instead of talking at home so we went out to eat. I hinted around on the way asking if anything was going on that we needed to talk about and he just acted like there was nothing going on. So we got to where we were going to eat went inside and ordered our drinks and food and I kept at Matthew. He still didn't really want to tell me anything so I finally told him ... You know your phone isn't missing I've got your phone and I have been in shock at somethings that I have seen on your phone. So now do you want to share anything with me about what is going on? Man let me tell you this was a very hard conservation to have with him in fact he told me he wasn't comfortable talking to me about stuff like this. Oh well he better get use to it!!! So without going into anymore details about I think we have things settled for now, that is until the next time something comes up. I do plan on having weekly chats with him to see if there is anything he needs to share with me or that we need to talk about. :)

So far my day to day has gone very well, but then again today isn't over with. I am praying for an uneventful weekend. :) Can you blame me??? Not sure what I'm doing tonight or tomorrow but Sunday I have church and Life Group. I'm looking forward to the Life Group this time. :-) If its pretty tomorrow I might try to clean my car up I couldn't tell you the last time it was cleaned. The pollen is out and my car looks awful!! I can't blame the pollen for the entire car because the inside is full of trash!!! My son had gotten up 3 wal-mart sacks a few weeks ago and they are still in the car too. So tomorrow morning I think we will get up get all the trash up in the house then the car so we can go to the land fill before it closes. Yes I have a green box but for one bag of household trash I think it's a waste to take it around front. Who knows I may just take it around front this coming week.

Well I guess it's time to stop here for today, and as usual I doubt I'll blog the weekend.

God is Good, He is still in Control and He is Worthy to be Honored and Praised!!!

2008-03-25T13:14:00.002-04:00

It's a new day :) and it's very cold!!! Seems like forever since I last blogged, but I just wasn't in the mood on Thursday, and didn't have time over the weekend. I was off on Friday but my mom called and woke me up said she needed me to carry her to the doctor. So I got up and got ready while she was waiting on them to call her back. They called her back and said they couldn't see her if she was feeling that bad she needed to go to the ER. So I took her to the ER and stayed with her until my dad got off work. I worked on two knitting projects while she dozed on and off. Went out to eat and then I was exhausted so I crashed early. :) Got up early on Saturday and messed around, took and nap, and then went to Wal-Mart, back home, then to my moms, and back home to make a cake for Sunday. (Man it was so GOOD!!) Guess that was pretty much it for Saturday. Sunday got up and went to church, and then went home to change my clothes and grab the cake before heading to my moms to cook (I fixed ham rolls and everyone seemed to like them), then I went home and took a nap. :) I think I was having an up and down day on Sunday, I actually stayed up and watched a movie before falling asleep. I got up Monday morning and a friend of mine had sent me some scriptures so I got out my Bible(s) and picked one and wrote it down out of my Message Bible. "Be Strong. Take Courage. Don't be Intimidated. Don't give them a second thought because God, your God, is striding ahead of you. He's right there with you. He won't let you down; he won't leave you." Deuteronomy 31:6 Let me tell you I shared that verse with everyone yesterday that I came into contact with.

Well yesterday was the big day!!! Before I write about the big day I'm going to back up a little bit. On Thursday afternoon Meagan called and was sounding like she was about to come out of her skin. They saw the girl getting in the truck with Tommy to go out on the road. Well in the mean time I had talked with a friend of mine on Wednesday evening and was really down about everything that was going on. Well she went by there on Friday and no one was home and so she went back on Saturday and they were there and she got out and went to the door. She talked to the girl about nothing in-particular and then left and called me. She was like that guy has lost his mind!!! Well knowing he was in town was just driving me CRAZY!!! In fact I got up yesterday morning and got ready and left early so I could ride by his house to see if he was still home and he was. I got to court around five minutes to nine and sat in the car until about ten after. I think I was just torturing myself for no reason at all. I had had Meagan read me the scripture all the way to the Court House off and on and then I just kept reading it and took it inside with me to keep reading. Got inside and made the metal detector go off (it was my shoes) and then we all had our cell phones so my dad took mine and Meagan's to my car and Bobby took his and Bridgette's to their car. :) No one else made the metal detector go off except for Bridgette's husband. Yes I had several people there with me for support which was a good thing because I really needed it. Well we sat and sat and finally Heather came and got all of us and took us to a conference room so that we could talk. She (the attorney) decided that Bridgette was going to be the best witness since she had talked to the girl. :) So my attorney went to let the judge know that we were there and the first case had been postponed so we were first. Man I was so nervous, my hands were sweating. :( So we went out in the hall and the deputy came out and called his name not once but 3 times. I was like you could have just called it once :) but he was a no show. :) The judge you could tell really frowned on that. He granted me my divorce plus allowed me to go back to my prior name :) and gave him 10 days to pay for my attorney fees. :) If he doesn't then he will be in contempt of court and they can arrest him. I asked Heather how much will that cost me ... I really would like to see that happen ... she was like settle down lets see if he pays first. :) LOL So then I went and got breakfast for me, my son, Meagan and her boyfriend and went home. :) I still wasn't sure what I was feeling but I was very Thankful that I didn't have to face him. I haven't seen him since the morning of Oct. 1st, 2007 and I guess I haven't gotten any text from him since the end of Oct '07. He did call after he was served with the divorce papers and left a nasty message on my voicemail but that was the last of that. So far I haven't even run into him any where in town. :) I really dread that day and hope that someone is with me when it does happen so I'm not by myself. Well then I decided since I had the rest of the day off I'd see about my taxes ... really been putting that off. So I called to see if I had to have an appointment or if I could just walk in and Thank goodness they were not busy so she told me the things I would need and boy did I panic. I had to have his social security number :( now how in the world was I going to get that??? I know I was thinking he WILL NOT get mine ... the IRS would have to call me for it. So I remembered I had something of his in my calendar so I looked and low and behold it was his social security card. :) Went to have my taxes filed and I already knew going in I'd have to file married filing separate. :( Well in my best interest it was better for me to file Head of Household ... you want to talk about being excited ... man I was!!! So I got finished before lunch and I sent a text to my friend to see about lunch and we decided on Migs and after lunch I was about to pop so I laid down and took a nap. :) Got up and realized we had counseling so I got ready to go to that not sure if my son would go in and talk or not but he did. :) My counseling session raised many questions for me after I left, things that I hadn't thought of. She asked how did I really feel about him not being there to face up to what he had done to me. Man alive he will have to face what he did and put me through one day maybe it wasn't yesterday but I assure you he will answer for it. Second we talked about dating ... and I told her just like I've told everyone else ... He will have to come and knock on my door to find me and the Lord will have already put it on both of our hearts. My counselor thinks I'm crazy for saying that ... she was like now you know the only men that could possibly knock on your door would be a plumber or electrician coming to fix something. Who knows maybe I am crazy LOL

So if anyone is reading my blog let me tell you this Our God is Awesome ... you just have to step out in Faith and Believe!! He will not let you down or leave your side!!!! I am so Thankful to be (as my friend calls me sometimes) a Woman of God!!! I've just got to work on taking that step of Faith more often. :)

God is Good, He is Still in Control, and He is Worthy to be Honored and Praised!!!

2008-03-19T16:22:00.000-04:00

It's Wednesday and I'm think I can't wait until Thursday at 5 pm. I just couldn't seem to pull myself out of bed this morning ... my son actually woke me up this morning. I guess I thought it was the Holiday Inn LOL, but I was actually early for work. Now I am wishing that my son didn't have school on Friday so I could sleep late.

I didn't get much accomplished last night, but I did get to go walk. There was a very pretty solid white cat that ended up following and that was pretty interesting. My crazy dog acted like she was scared of it and jumped one time. I'm thinking this cat was use to being around dogs and thank goodness Precious had been brought up around one before we got her. I was telling my son and he was like oh boy we can get a cat and Precious won't mind. I don't think so it's either one or the other but not both. :) I had tried to talk him into a cat before we moved but he wanted to keep Precious. I'm just not crazy about dogs at all but she is a trip sometimes.

Church is tonight and I'm hoping the weather isn't going to be too bad. It's not suppose to be bad like it was over the weekend which is very good. I've still got the blankets in my closet from Saturday. It's already started raining here in Abbeville but it's not bad at all (just looks like a very light rain). Tomorrow evening we have counseling and my son isn't looking forward to that at all.

Can you believe that when I went to pick my son from my parents this afternoon that they wanted to know what I was doing about my divorce. Said I needed to be finding someone who knew who that car belonged too and someone that knew for a fact that a girl lived there. That just made me so very MAD!!!!!! I just walked out ... he called not long after I got home I figured to see if I would answer my phone or not.

God is Good, He is still in Control, and He is worthy to be Honored and Praised!!!

2008-03-18T10:18:00.000-04:00

One day down and 3 more for the work week this week. I'm not feeling very good today, or maybe that's not the right wording. I have so much going on inside that it's hard to concentrate this morning. My meeting with my pastor and his wife went very well last night. It's was not very easy but then again it was. I cried on and off most of the time I was there, I guess you could say it was an eye opener for me. He told me toward the end that there were 2 scriptures that kept coming to him while I was talking the first one had to do with the alabaster box and the second was did he really see me not just see me but really see me. They helped me to see that I have got some issues that I need to deal with before healing can take place in my life. I really thought that I was past the issue but deep down I'm really not. Once I get past this and face it face to face things will be better. Plus I've got to take a step out in faith and believe and until I do that I'm just stuck in a rut. I was told this morning at work that maybe I should try a burnt offering ... I've never done that but I do think I'll write the things down that I need to deal with and then go from there. Yes I said things with an s on the end ... wouldn't it be great if it was just one thing but it's not. The Lord is working mightily in my life right now and I just know he has something GREAT in store for me at the end of this journey that I am about to take.

I'm still pretty nervous about Monday and I have no clue what is going to happen. I guess I have 6 days to find someone that is not afraid of Tommy that will go to court with me. I know not to ask any of his neighbors and I don't blame them for not wanting to go at all. I don't think I would want to either if I were in their shoes. I know I don't want to wait a year to be granted a divorce and from what the preacher said last night he said I was doing what needed to be done ... and no that doesn't mean he believes in divorce but sometimes things are just not in our control. I told him I had been second guessing myself as to rather I was doing the right thing or not.

Thank goodness it's almost lunch time ... I could eat my shoe right about now. :) Not sure what I'm doing for lunch today if I go by myself I'm sure I'll go grab something then read my Bible the rest of the time. I've got some scriptures I'm wanting to look up. I did bring my knitting but I don't have anything on my needles. That's a bummer :( and very unusual for me.

Well I went to lunch with Marsha today so we went to Maria's. :) Let me tell you ... I'm so stuffed now I'm miserable!!! I've gotten to where every time I eat I'm just miserable, and I don't think I'm over eating. Who knows maybe I am.

Not sure if I really finished today or not but got to stop here now because time has slipped up on me and it's 35 minutes to quitting time today. :) Later~~

God is Good, He is still in CONTROL, and He is worthy to be Honored and Praised!!!

2008-03-17T14:04:00.000-04:00

Well I made it to Monday!! :) The weekend was really great, but I was kind of getting doubts on Friday evening. When my son got home I was still playing the prank on him about the shoes he wanted for his Birthday. He got so mad he was like I'm going to live with my dad ... I just said okay. Anyways when his dad got there to get him he was like I changed my mind I'm staying with my mama. Anyways on Saturday I kept telling him he needed to help me clean up in case someone just stopped by, and he was like me-ma isn't coming she said she wasn't going any where today. I had already told him we'd go to Bikes and Boards after lunch so he was in an okay mood about that. I put on the chili and made the slaw and was going to wait until everyone that was coming was there before I finished up anything else. I had made tea and two brownie pies Friday night while he was gone to the movies. That's another funny story. He came in and saw those pies and was like can I have a piece ... I said oh no those are for church Sunday ... he was so mad ... you can doing something for church but forgot about my Birthday??? I told him your Birthday is Sunday and I'll make you a pie Saturday night. :)

Now it's Monday after lunch and I'm just trying to stay very very busy. I took the last of my medicine on Friday and I didn't make it to the drug store in time this weekend for my refill. It's amazing how your serotonin levels affect our moods. Today I could just cry at the drop of a pen top. I have a feeling this is going to be a rough week plus the start of next week. I have counseling Thursday and Monday so that may help me some. I've got to find a witness before Monday or I'm going to up the creek. It's amazing to me that I had all these people say he's got a girl at his house but when it comes time to go to court no one wants to go testify against him. I just don't get it and it makes me very ANGRY!!!

I'm meeting with the Pastor and his wife this evening and I'm very nervous about it. I know that I want to go and talk with him but where in the world I will start I haven't a clue. I've jotted down some notes of things I want to make sure that I tell him and his wife.

God is Good, He is still in Control, and He's worthy to be Honored and Praised!!!