February 29, 2008 Friday

It's Friday!!! :):):) It's also the last day of the month. I've been kind of slow today but I promise I'll make it up on Monday. It will be the first of the month and that's all ways crazy. :)

I think I'm sort of getting caught up on the Podcast I listen to. If I'd quit adding new ones to try I might get caught up. LOL Right now I'm not listening to the new ones I've added until I get caught up on the ones I know I like. I guess I could go ahead and listen to see if I like them or not. Or better yet I could listen to them at home before adding them to my I-Pod ... that's probably the better choice. Guess my mind just doesn't work correctly sometimes to think things out like that.

I've done pretty good this week reading my Bible, walking, and knitting or a puzzle book. I guess I've missed one evening of walking and one night of reading. :( Not going to walk this evening ... Matthew is wanting to eat in Abbeville tonight and Friday evenings are the only time the couple that runs the place are there at the same time. Not sure what I'm going to eat yet as I had too much to eat at lunch today. Can't blame anyone but myself. I called my mom to see if she had talked to my dad and she said he was like we are going to have ice cream for supper? I thought that was funny.

Not sure what the plans are for the weekend yet. I do plan on getting out my walking DVD's and trying to do one of those. I got a pretty good work out last night I think ... I was a tad sore this morning. I burned 133 calories which I think is the most I've burned since I started back to the gym. I walked 1.34 miles ... I was beginning to wonder if I was going to walk a mile last night. I'm am enjoying going to the gym and walking, not sure Matthew is enjoying himself though. (he's going thru a withdrawal phase right now) He likes playing basketball and the rock climbing ... I think he's just got to get adjusted to our new schedule. That's the only thing about me and him I wish I could change ... yeah it's good being schedule people but when we get off our path it throws us for a big loop. I'm handling it very well but he's struggling. I think I bombarded him with several schedule changes all at once which probably wasn't a very good idea on my part.

Well I guess I need to stop here for today :-) Hope everyone who may read my blog is having a great day!!

Good is Good, He is still in Control, and He is worthy to be Praised and Honored!!

February 28, 2008 Thursday

Can you believe that tomorrow is that last day of February? It's a leap year this year 29 days in February.

Well, it's another day :) ... it's COLD this morning here. Didn't want to leave the house ... guess my son has me spoiled to starting my car. He stayed with a friend last night so I had to start the car this morning. :( Thank goodness he's still in that stage of liking to go start the car in the mornings.

Made it to the gym last night and actually burned 120 calories ... I know doesn't sound like much but I haven't been burning that many since I started. I have been getting a mile in all except for one time, and that was because I was walking slow that night. Then after the gym went and got cheese dip. :) It was weird not having Matthew there last night. That's his second time spending the night with a friend since we moved, and it just had to happen on a school night.

Going to try to get to the gym tonight ... I packed up my clothes this morning just in case. I also had in the back of my mind that I would try to get my son an appointment with the counselor today but she is booked solid today and tomorrow, in fact her first opening is not until Wednesday. So I left my number to have her give me a call because she won't be in until 4 today. We do have an appointment next Thursday but I was hoping I get get my son in today.

I'm still doing good reading my Bible in the evenings. :) I have tapered off my knitting just a tad, but I'm thinking I need to step that back up. I need to save up some money and order me some yarn (I think with gas prices as high as they are the shipping would be the same as me driving to Anderson) Wish there were more places to buy local the only place in town that sales peaches and creme is Wal-Mart and they don't have many colors to chose from. Their web site is: http://www.peaches-creme.com/

My how time flies it is almost lunch time here and have no clue what I'll do for lunch. (Not sure if Marsha is going to be back in time.) I'm guessing McDonalds or the Ice Cream Parlor, and with it cold I'm leaning toward the Ice Cream Parlor. I've been wanting a hot dog all week and haven't gotten one yet so today may be the day. :)

God is Good, He is still in Control, and He is Worthy to be Praised and Honored!!

February 27, 2008 Hump Day!!!

Finally we have reached the middle of the week. :) To me it should be Thursday. I should be very grateful it's just Wednesday.

My day got started off rough, I got up sick this morning but I have been pushing myself all day to not let it take control of me. :) It's shortly after 3 now and I'm still hanging in there. In fact I'm planning on going to the gym tonight. Didn't make it last night ... my son was having issues last night and it just kept going down hill the whole evening with him. :( It was so cold and windy I guess it was a pretty good evening to stay in.

Went to lunch with the auditors at work today ... I got a kids plate with 2 chicken fingers and fries. They come every year and the ladies from accounting get to go to lunch one day with them while they are here and today was the day ... was wishing it could have been another day but it ended up being okay. I pretty much just sat there and took everything in. :)

I'm still playing catch up on all my Podcast that I listen to ... I'm beginning to wonder if I'll ever be caught up. I'm caught up on a few of them ... but I need to quit adding new ones to try out. This week I'm catching up on http://www.mommycast.com/ my starting date was Aug and I'm up to Oct now. I think I have 6 left for 2007 on this podcast. :)

Guess I need to get back to work and will write again tomorrow if your lucky :)

God is Good, He is still in Control, and He is Worthy to be Praised and Honored!

February 26, 2008 ~ Tuesday

My goodness it's already the end of February ... I just don't understand where time goes any more. In saying that though it feels like it should be Wednesday instead of Tuesday. LOL ... guess I'm rushing it just a tad.

I didn't get a chance to blog yesterday ... went to the park after work and walked then got home cooked (French Toast), got my shower, read in my Bible and then I crashed until this morning. This week it would be nice to get to walk every day but don't think that will happen Friday because I already have plans. Guess Monday - Thursday will be just fine. :)

Made it to church Sunday ... I felt bad for missing the Sunday before but there's no way I could have made it. I am still feeling like this is the place the Lord wants me to be. Seems like every service has had something in it just for me and the things I'm going through. I really enjoy the Wednesday night service it is just AWESOME!!! I wish Matthew enjoy Wednesday nights but he is in some phase that I DO NOT LIKE!!! I sure hope once he starts counseling with my counselor that he will start back being his self. Plus I am hoping this will help us to be able to communicate a lot better. I said something to him over the weekend about our anger workbook but we still haven't gotten it out. We've only read in it once since I got it. I was reminded of the book because my divorce care email this morning was dealing with anger. Getting back to my topic ... Tommy's parents were at the church I started attending Sunday and that was akward for me. They came the Sunday I missed and I was hoping that it was just going to be that one Sunday ... fat chance ... they said "this is our second sunday and we really enjoy it here" ... I thought about not going back but have since changed my mind and I am not going to let them stop me from going some where that I feel like I need to be. Like one of my friends said "keep their mouth shut about you or anything that pertains to your "former" life everything will be alright." It surprised me that they hugged me and wanted to know how I was doing ... I just smiled at them and said I'm just fine. Wish I was one of those quick thinkers cause I would have said how is your son doing??? I should feel the way I do but it's going to get easier with time I hope.

Well I guess I better get back to work :( got lots to do before going home.

God is Good, He is still in Control, and He is Worthy to be Praised and Honored!

February 22, 2008 It's Friday

Thanks goodness it's Friday ... it's such a rainy and cold day here today ... wish I could have stayed in bed because then I don't think I would have gotten cold today. :) I've been cold for two days now and just can't seem to get warm for nothing. Plus my nose is running until it's time for bed then I can't breathe at all!!!

Counseling went very well last night, it's like time just flies when I am in counseling. We had lots to talk about too. We went ahead and set up a months worth of sessions. I wanted to make sure I got to see her before going to court plus after court. We also set Matthew up appointments too ... I'm hoping that will go very good. I know he's talked with her in the past when we invited him in to see how counseling was and what it was all about. She told me then that she would be glad to talk with him but the past 2 visits he hasn't wanted to go in so after talking with her last night we just set him up his own appointments. We go back March 6th for our appointments. In fact when I got to work this morning I posted our appointments on my calendar at work. :) Now I need to call his counselor and cancel his appointment with him because that was going very well at all. To me just a waste of time for everyone involved and using up my vacation time from work.

Going to head to the gym after work. :) This wasn't a good week going to the gym only went Tuesday because my week was so full. Next week I hope to get to the gym on Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and maybe Friday. So far nothing is on my calendar for that week except for my sons appointment that I am going to cancel.

My mom and son came over to eat lunch with me today :) that just tickles him to death. He made me mad though because he wanted ice cream which was fine but he didn't eat it!!! They didn't have jelly so he ended up with a grilled cheese instead. Then I had to go get them to cut the edges off for him. Guess he got that from me because I don't eat the edges either. It's funny how you can see both parents in one child. Guess that is a good thing and a bad thing sometimes. I wish my son had not of picked up my eathing habits because that is not good at all.

God is Good, He is still in Control, and He is Worthy to be Praised and Honored.

February 21, 2008

So far my day is off to a good start. I'm still fighting a cold that is trying to get the best of me but I'm not going to let it!!!

Made it to church last night ... and again it was great!!! It's just amazing to me to see things from someone else's view. These church people have really made me feel welcome. I'm only been 2 Sundays and 2 Wednesdays and I have really enjoyed the services that I have made it to. This coming Sunday they are having life groups in the even ... a little scared about that but also looking forward to it. They have life group meetings the last Sunday evening of each month.

I talked with Glenda after church and told her I need to call and set up an appointment to get my hair done before the 24th of March. Told her she was going to have to make me beautiful ... she said I already was. Guess I'm still not feeling that ... but you know it's not what is on the outside that counts it's what is in my heart and it is beautiful!!! That sort of goes with my devotion this moring from Proverbs31 Ministries "What's wrong with me?" “I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” Psalm 139:14 (NIV) I woke up this morning wondering why do we love the people we love and why do we love the wrong people sometimes ... maybe I'm looking at this wrong but it just confuses me to no end. You have people that tell you that you are a great person ... maybe I'm not suppose to have the love for someone that I will share my life with ... maybe I try too hard ... I know for a fact that I know how to pick the wrong ones ... that's why this time I'm letting the guy find me and he has to make all the moves and I'm not going to make it easy for him. :)

I have counseling tonight ... that's a good thing she has been such a blessing to me. I have gotten back into church for myself and I'm working on not putting myself down so much.

God is Good, He is still in Control, and he's Worthy to be Praised and Honored.

February 20, 2008

Well I made it to the gym last night. :) Didn't walk very fast in fact I never got over 2 miles per hour so I didn't get a mile in, :( but at least I was moving for 30 minutes. My son played basketball while I was walking. Left the gym and was going to the drug store to pick up a few items and my son realized he forgot his jacket so we had to back track to the gym and was very thankful that his jacket was still there. :) Left the gym once again and headed to pick up some KFC for supper. :) Got home ate and then I didn't feel much like knitting so I read in my Bible until bedtime.

Yesterday was a pretty good day ... I will just be very greatful to get off this medicine. So far this week I'm on track for what I have planned. Monday evening I had plans of meeting up with Sandi, and we ended up going to eat. :) Last night was the gym, tonight is church, Thursday is counseling, and I hope Friday to make it to the gym. Next week I will plan on going to the gym Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and maybe Friday. I asked my son last night if he wanted to try racket ball but he was like no. I don't think I want to go play that by myself.

My daughter sent me a text while I was at the gym saying that she had broke up with her boyfriend ... he had hit her ... later she was calling my mom telling her she was going to the movies with the boyfriend. Go figure. I know I sure don't understand it at all.

I talked with my son on the way home last night about him not wanting to spend any time with his dad. His response was he hasn't always been in my life but you have ... he said I don't mind him coming to my house ... I just find it kind of odd because he use to go visit with his dad. In fact his dad took this coming Friday off and my son is going to my moms for the day because he wants to come eat lunch with me.

I was reading in my Bible at lunch today and it was talking about "Get Understanding" It said to "write at the top of your list: Get Understanding". Is that not just neat how before I went to lunch I was talking about my children and not understanding. The Lord just works in mysteries way. :)

God is Good, He is still in control, and He is worthy to be praised and honored.

February 19, 2008

Well I started back blogging and ended up sick :( ... I went home from work Wednesday and didn't come back until Monday :( ... I did finally go to the doctor on Friday and ended up with a shot in my BUTT!!! OUCH!!! He put me on an antibiotic and some pain medicine. If I'm still the same next month he said to follow up with my doctor and have an ultrasound ... I already know what my doctor is going to say :( ... something I do not want to hear.

Also, while I was out sick I got my notice of my court date ... it's March 24th. I have mixed feelings about that. I should be excited but I'm a little scared. My friends tell me I should be excited and shouldn't be scared at all. I think I will have my counselor right a note on my behalf and I may even get my doctor to write a note :P (he embarrassed me Friday when he his his dictation talking about me not being sexually active and what was so funny was he didn't even ask ... guess they can tell by checking you.)

I started a new dishcloth on Sunday but last night when I picked it back up I mixed my colors some how and started back knitting with the wrong color ... no problem going to see if I can continue like I'm doing and stitch back and forth then start another one but not mix up my colors. :) I'm also knitting a bookmark ... it's very pretty. I need to figure out how to post some pictures of my knitting on here. :) I think I forgot to take some pictures of some of the dishcloths I knitted at Christmas. :( Maybe this weekend I can get on here and see what I can figure out.

I will be going to the gym after work today but going to have to take it easy. :p I did good when I first started went on a Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and a Friday. Now I've gone down hill :-( went one day the week of the 4th and one day the week of the 11th ... going to see how we do this week. I know I can't go Wedneday or Thursday but maybe I can go Friday and Saturday. I think I'm going to see if my son wants to try to play racket ball. (that would be or should be interesting) Next week if all goes well I should be able to go to the gym on Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday.

Guess that's enough today... will bore you again tomorrow maybe.

God is Good, He is still in control, and He is worthy to be praised and honored!!!!

Oh My

Well I haven't written since I set up this blog. (Shame on me.) I use to blog just about every day on MySpace but haven't been blogging there either. I actually started a written journal back in October instead of blogging online. I'm back to myself for the time being and plan to start blogging again regular.

To catch you up back in October my husband sent me a text message telling me he wanted a divorce. (We had only been married 3 months.) This was such a shock to me that I just didn't know what to do or think. I was very embarassed about all that was going on. He wouldn't take my calls or return my calls. Then the weekend of Thanksgiving he moved his other woman in. Thank goodness I had gone that Wednesday and filed for divorce. He was served December 8th and he's called twice ... says he is going to counter me on adultry because my son's father comes to my house to pick my son up. Go figure. I'm not worried about anything because I know I haven't done anything wrong at all. I am nervous about having to go to court because I do not want to face him after what all he put me through and I'm not sure how it will affect me. I've been in counseling since the end of November or the first of December and that has helped me a lot. My son is also in counseling too but I don't think it is helping him very much, he is still having a hard time with all of this.

Anyways I've been staying busy with my knitting in my free time. :) I gots lots of knitting done for Christmas. I was scared that I was going to get a burn out but so far I'm still knitting maybe not like I was in November and December but just a little slower. I joined several knitting groups from Yahoo and so far I've kept up with two of them. :) I guess you can say that one group did a football for January but I had already knitted a football for a Christmas gift for my son so I didn't knit the football. Guess I need to go back and do that one and he will have 2 ... maybe I can do it in orange instead of brown so he will have one in the Clemson color. I've also started back working out (walking on the treadmill) and found me a church that I really like. I've been two Sundays now and one Wednesday but I feel deep down that I'm in the right place.

I went to the YMCA last night and I can really tell that I had skipped a few days the week before. When I started I walked Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Friday then last week I only walked on Tuesday. So far I'm on track this week :).