March 06, '08

Well what to right about today? Lets see ... I think I'll start with my son. I think he is going through some big change He was a BUTT this morning (more than the normal). One minute he's fine, the next he's mad, and the next he just doesn't talk to you. (I hate the silent treatment!!!) I know he hasn't been feeling good this week (he's been running a fever in the evenings since Tuesday) but still ... he sat in my car last night during church. His dad was suppose to watch him ... I had asked him the night before if he would watch him and he said yes. Which I know his mom has surgery on Tuesday and he wanted to go see her he should have just said no I will not be able to watch my son while you go to church. So this morning didn't start off very well maybe the afternoon will be lots better. We have counseling tonight so I'm looking forward to that to see how it goes.

Oh I just have to write about my drive to work this morning. I've done pretty good this week about not fussing on my way to work :) watch tomorrow I'll fuss all the way to work. LOL Anyways this morning I was in the inside lane with my cruise control set at 64 (yeah I know I was speeding) there was a truck in the right hand lane who was not going a steady speed at all ... he'd pass me then I would get back in front of him just in opposite lanes ... you getting the idea. Well this blue car came out from no where and was lane changing like crazy she couldn't decide if she wanted to ride behind me or the behind the truck. Well the speed limit changed from 55 to 45 and I ALWAYS drop my cruise control to 45 because I will have to drop to 35 once I pass the red light. This girl from Florida in her little blue car finally was able to get around me (she looked over at me and gave me a DIRTY look) and the truck and she never hit the breaks not even in the 35 zone which is a school zone. Well the cop sitting in the school zone pulled out behind me which I didn't see him but I seen him go around me and way down the road to catch up with her and he got her STOPPED!!! Its was just so funny I looked over her way but of course she wasn't looking but I was dying LAUGHING!!!! So I guess that was my excitement for today.

So far my morning has flew by it's almost lunch time here, and it's such a pretty day outside. It would be nice to go walk outside after work but I have counseling. Going to have to start watching my outside time now that it's warming up, my skin has already started acting up which isn't good at all. :( I haven't started using my medicine yet but I really need to get it out. I go see the skin doctor April 4th for a check up so I guess I need to see how this medicine is going to do before then. It was the end of the summer season when I started using it last year so didn't really get a good feel for how it is going to work. I'm just praying that it is going to work because the next step for me I think will be very costly.

I'm doing pretty good getting caught up on the podcast I listen too still, still on track reading my Bible, keeping up with my knitting, but not on track with the walking yet. :( Well this week like I said at the top my son has been sick, then last night was church, tonight is counseling, and who really wants to spend their weekend working out? Guess I will be but only after I have my list (need to make it out) is completed. So I think my goal for losing weight before the 24th of this month isn't going to happen :( ... guess I could lose a few pounds in 2 weeks time. Got to stay positive and busy until then or else I might drive myself crazy!!!

Update on my Podcast listening .... I think or at least hope that once I catch up to date with the one I'm on now I'll be offically caught up .... can't really tell since I haven't been able to put everything on my I-Pod since I got behind. One interesting thing I've listened to today and found very interesting and would like to share with anyone who might read my blog. It was from a divorce 101 podcast that I listen to but I think everyone can apply these things to their every day life. 1. USE YOUR BREATH ... "Take deep, conscious breaths, shallow breathing doesn't allow sufficient oxygen to come into the body and creates stress. Deep belly breaths help to quiet the ego-mind that may begin to start racing with thoughts in an effort to avoid the pain. Breathing deeply while having an emotional moment will help you digest the feelings and be able to restore a sense of calm and groundedness more quickly."2. YOUR JOURNAL IS YOUR GAUZE PAD ... " journal is like a clean, sterile gauze pad for a seeping wound. A journal is a safe place to collect all of those internal thoughts and feelings that must be released. I would even argue that life in the void requires a journal. Otherwise the unreleased feelings and toxic thoughts that are created in relationship break-up simply continue to run rampant within your consciousness. It is also the doorway to connecting with the wisdom and gift of why you have manifested this situation in the first place. There are no rights and wrongs about how to journal properly. That’s just the ego-mind squawking. Just give journaling a try." 3. THE MEDICINE OF MUSIC ... "If you feel numb and don't know how to jump-start the release of your emotions, music can do it." 4. CELEBRATE YOUR TEARS ... "Celebrate your tears not as a sign of weakness or neediness, but as a sign you are honoring your heart and growing stronger." 5. GIVE YOURSELF TIME ... "We can’t be too quick to heal the wound and need time to heal from the inside out." 2nd part to that was 1. GIVE VOICE TO THE STORIES YOU TELL YOURSELF 2. TAKE IT ONE DAY AT A TIME 3. TAKE YOUR OWN ADVISE ... what advise would you give a dear friend in the same situation. 4. RESTRUCTURE YOUR ENVIRONMENT 5. COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS ... "Counting your blessings will help you find your footing in the void. Take the time to explore the void. The lessons you learn there will grow your heart and set you on the path to healing." One of the things under restructure your environment talked about not holding on to old text messages (this would also be emails or written letters or cards) GET RID of them!!!! That will be the first thing that I will do March 24th ... that's so exciting!!!!

Guess I need to stop here I think it's pretty long today since I put in some information on here from a podcast that I listen to.

God is Good, He is still in Control, and He is Worthy to be Praised and Honored!!!